Today we celebrated my daughter's 17th birthday with pizza and cake. Tomorrow is her actual birthday. We will be going into NYC, taking a Liberty Cruise and just enjoying everything a big city has to offer. She plans to go to the top of the Empire State Building. I'll be passing on that offer.
My mother-in-law is still here visiting from Illinois, and today my cousin from Kentucky arrived. Having two guests is simply amazing. It is comforting having people form "home" around. I try not to think about the day that they leave, and I am just enjoying the time that they are here.
I have certainly learned to "live in the moment." So many people live in the past. They've been hurt by past relationships, failures, and shortcomings. I was one of those people who lived in the "future." What I mean is that I constantly used to worry about what "could" happen. I would dream up these scenarios in my head and then worry, "What if this comes true?"
That is NO way to live. I am determined, now, to live in the present. Enjoy every moment.
I spent way too long so consumed with the future, that I never really enjoyed the present. It is sad to think about, but change is good, so I changed that way of thinking. It was NOT easy, and I had help to do it, but it sure was worth it!
Today is the first day I drove to another city without my GPS. For those of you who don't know me....this is WAY out of character. One major fear I have always held onto is the fear of "getting lost." Seriously, how lost can one realy get? I don't know, but I never wanted to find out!
I have jumped out of my comfort zone. I'm amazed every day by the huge jump that I have taken. It's amazing what you can do when you have to do it...when you don't have a choice.
I must admit, with my daughter's upcoming birthday, it is strange not to be back in Illinois. Typically, we have a big party at my parent's house and my mom cooks the most delicious meal. She askes us what we want for our birthday meal a couple of weeks before our birthday, and then she makes that meal for us on our special day. It is quite a treat!
This year, my daughter had pizza. Had we been in Illinois, she would've had my mom's chicken and dumplings with mashed potatoes, mac n' cheese, and lots of vegetables. It is strange not being there to celebrate her milestone.
We live here now. We celebrate our birthdays here now. They celebrate their birthdays there. This is the "new normal" that we are trying to grow accustomed to. It'll happen; it is already happening. It is just a slow process. I am so happy to have my daughter's grandma an cousin here at this time.
My kids are still asking for a dog; I am still trying to put the subject off.
John 14:27 reads, "I'm leaving you with a gift: peace of mind and heart! And the peace I give isn't fragile like the peace the world gives. So, don't be troubled or afraid.
Isn't that reassuring! This is what helps me to live and love each moment and not fret about what could or would or might happen. God has given me peace of mind and heart!
Yes, the peace the world gives is fleeting and fragile. It, most of the time, can't be trusted. It certainly lets us down. The verse also says, "Don't be troubled or afraid."
As I ponder this verse, I commit myself to not being troubled or afraid. On the days when I really miss home, I dig in and embrace the peace of mind and heart that the Lord has given me. When I am fearful of my new area, or lonliness, or even issues I hear about on the news, I refuse to be afraid.
Obviously, I can't do this all of the time, but it is certainly a goal I am working to obtain.
I am out of my comfort zone, and I am fine.
Thursday, June 30, 2011
Day 25--supposed to have been posted yesterday, but I was having computer issues.
Today, day 25, was the first "date night" that my husband and I have had since we moved here from Illinois. I looked forward to it all day!
Some of you may be thinking, "It hasn't even been a month!" I realize that, but we love to "date" about every two weeks, if possible.
We were married as soon as we turned 18-years-old. Anytime couples get married, each individual person will grow through different stages of growth and changes. When you marry as young as we did, many changes in personality, maturity, and "life experiences" are to be exprected.
The question is, "Will you grow together, or grow apart?" The growth and change are inevitable, but the decision has to be made.
In today's society, it becomes very easy to grow apart and begin living separate lives. Everything is so fast-paced and busy. It has become very easy to become dissatisfied with ones's partner and just "end" it.
It really is heartbreaking.
My husband is my best friend. I feel that throughout the past 17 years, we have almost "morphed" into one person. He really is my "better half." The Bible talks about two becoming one. There is total truth in that.
One of my aunts once described relationships as eggshells. Everyone is a cracked eggshell. Not one person is exempt...we're all cracked in some way. The key is finding the person who is the perfect fit to your cracked shell. My husband fits my cracked shell perfectly. That's hard to do, because mine has a lot of cracks!
Our date night tonight was wonderful. We ate at an Italian outdoor cafe and then went to a local film center that shows lots of independent films. I ran into my cousin from Manhattan at the late night showing, so we made it a "double date!" It was a great film and good times were had by all.
My husband is my best friend and so much more. We laugh together. We cry together. We go through all the good and bad times together. We grow and change together. We communicate!
He is my special gift sent straight from God. God knew the man I would need in my life to allow me change, grow, and flourish into the woman I was designed to be.
Some of you may be thinking, "It hasn't even been a month!" I realize that, but we love to "date" about every two weeks, if possible.
We were married as soon as we turned 18-years-old. Anytime couples get married, each individual person will grow through different stages of growth and changes. When you marry as young as we did, many changes in personality, maturity, and "life experiences" are to be exprected.
The question is, "Will you grow together, or grow apart?" The growth and change are inevitable, but the decision has to be made.
In today's society, it becomes very easy to grow apart and begin living separate lives. Everything is so fast-paced and busy. It has become very easy to become dissatisfied with ones's partner and just "end" it.
It really is heartbreaking.
My husband is my best friend. I feel that throughout the past 17 years, we have almost "morphed" into one person. He really is my "better half." The Bible talks about two becoming one. There is total truth in that.
One of my aunts once described relationships as eggshells. Everyone is a cracked eggshell. Not one person is exempt...we're all cracked in some way. The key is finding the person who is the perfect fit to your cracked shell. My husband fits my cracked shell perfectly. That's hard to do, because mine has a lot of cracks!
Our date night tonight was wonderful. We ate at an Italian outdoor cafe and then went to a local film center that shows lots of independent films. I ran into my cousin from Manhattan at the late night showing, so we made it a "double date!" It was a great film and good times were had by all.
My husband is my best friend and so much more. We laugh together. We cry together. We go through all the good and bad times together. We grow and change together. We communicate!
He is my special gift sent straight from God. God knew the man I would need in my life to allow me change, grow, and flourish into the woman I was designed to be.
Tuesday, June 28, 2011
Day 24
Two things happened today that are worth discussing; both were FABULOUS!
First, I actually ran into someone I know today at the grocery store! It was the man we got our house from! I was just running in to go to the bakery and choose a cake for my daughter's upcoming birthday. There he was! I said, "Sam!" I said it in the most enthusiastic voice you can even imagine. He said, "Hi!"
I said, "I finally ran into someone I know in the grocery store!" Seriously, I was smiling from ear to ear...I mean, I was beaming!
He said, "Yeah."
I continued on to the bakery just grinning from ear to ear. It finally happened. I knew it would!
Second, in a previous blog, I mentioned a woman I called about school supplies for the fall school year. She was so nice and helpful and answered so many of my questions. We met at the park yesterday with our sons. She fired away with fun places to visit, local information, and important facts about the area. She even brought some paper and a pen for me to take notes.
How thoughtful!
Anyway, she mentioned that her daughter was interested in meeting my daughter and showing her around the community. I was thrilled!
The girl contacted my daughter via facebook. She picked her up today for lunch, and they ended up spending five hours together. They had a fantastic time and went to some cool places!
I can't imagine being a soon-to-be senior in high school, like my daughter, and making a move across the country. I know I couldn't have done it when I was her age. She has accepted this challenge, has taken it day by day, and is finding her "new normal."
She has gone out, explored this community and surrounding communities, met people, found a job, and helped get this entire house in living order.
She is a priceless jewel. She SHINES.
First, I actually ran into someone I know today at the grocery store! It was the man we got our house from! I was just running in to go to the bakery and choose a cake for my daughter's upcoming birthday. There he was! I said, "Sam!" I said it in the most enthusiastic voice you can even imagine. He said, "Hi!"
I said, "I finally ran into someone I know in the grocery store!" Seriously, I was smiling from ear to ear...I mean, I was beaming!
He said, "Yeah."
I continued on to the bakery just grinning from ear to ear. It finally happened. I knew it would!
Second, in a previous blog, I mentioned a woman I called about school supplies for the fall school year. She was so nice and helpful and answered so many of my questions. We met at the park yesterday with our sons. She fired away with fun places to visit, local information, and important facts about the area. She even brought some paper and a pen for me to take notes.
How thoughtful!
Anyway, she mentioned that her daughter was interested in meeting my daughter and showing her around the community. I was thrilled!
The girl contacted my daughter via facebook. She picked her up today for lunch, and they ended up spending five hours together. They had a fantastic time and went to some cool places!
I can't imagine being a soon-to-be senior in high school, like my daughter, and making a move across the country. I know I couldn't have done it when I was her age. She has accepted this challenge, has taken it day by day, and is finding her "new normal."
She has gone out, explored this community and surrounding communities, met people, found a job, and helped get this entire house in living order.
She is a priceless jewel. She SHINES.
Monday, June 27, 2011
Day 23
I realized, today, when I get the most uncomfortable, homesick, and sad...believe it or not, it is the grocery store.
I never gave much thought to grocery shopping. It's something I have done every single week for the last 18 years of my life. I don't dislike it. I actually enjoy the process of shopping for our groceries. I never really gave much thought to the people in the grocery store, until now.
In Illinois, if we were in a hurry to get somewhere, but needed something from the store, my husband would ask to go in and get what we needed because he knew I would see someone I knew and stand and talk. It's the way it always was.
In Illinois, I usually shopped at Wal Mart and Kroger. I knew, or was familiar with, many of the employees at both stores. I always received a smile upon arriving. Usually, within the first five or so minutes of my shopping trip, I would run into someone I knew, or an employee that I saw each week, and the conversations would begin. It was always nice to run into someone at the store that I hadn't seen in years.
Again, this is all something that I hadn't really thought about before. It was just "how it was."
Today, day 23, was "grocery day." Upon entering, I could feel my blood pressure rising. I felt myself getting stressed. I felt like my cart was in everyone's way.
I felt like an alien on another planet. I hated that feeling.
As I continued to put groceries in my cart, I continued to stress. I almost wanted to sceram...or cry. I was determined to just get my groceries and get the heck out of there. But, why??
I got home and went outside for awhile. I started to ponder the situation. Then, it hit me: it's the PEOPLE!
I am a "people person!" I go into the store, and I don't see a famliar face. No matter where I go, I don't see one single solitary person that I know...or even sort of know! Sometimes when I smile at people, they look at me like I'm nuts. When I say, "Hi" to them, they REALLY look at me like I'm nuts!
It becomes easy for me, at times like I described, to miss my comfort zone. I miss familiarity. I miss the faces, landmarks, and even the smells from "home." I believe being completely removed from your comfort zone puts you in a "fragile" state. You "feel" like people are looking at you like you're crazy. You feel like you are in everyone's way. You feel like an alien; however, none of that is really true.
I am looking forward to the day when I am strolling through the grocery store and I see a familiar face! Just thinking about that makes me smile; I know it'll happen...it's just a matter of time.
Eventually, this will be my "comfort zone." My actual house, my home, already feels like that. It's a retreat. I drive around the city, get lost, have people honking at me, etc...Then, I get home, and I feel better. It's my sanctuary. This will all get better, it will just take time. I keep telling myself that, "patience is a virtue!"
My daughter and her grandma had an exciting day! They went to Richard Gere's restaurant. They said it was fabulous. Then, they drove by the Clinton's house. Who knew they lived so close? Then, they just explored our city for awhile. In the evening, they cooked us a delicious dinner of chicken enchiladas and rice. It was quite a treat!
Before dinner I went for a walk. I ran into my neighbor. We have only spoke a couple of times, but she is very sweet and wise. She was married for 48 years to a wonderful man. They had three children and they raised them all in the house she is in now. Today marked the six week anniversary of his death. She was explaining to me that she feels like part of her is gone. She is only half of a
person now. When she goes out around town, she is missing her "other half."
I can't even imagine that. I can't fathom it. How do you recover from that?
I go in public and I just feel lonely or ignored; however, I come home to my husband who loves me and laughs with me and takes care of me. I wake up with him and go to bed with him and it's been like that for 17 years. She goes out, feels lonely and cracked in half, and goes home to an empty house.
There is really no comparison to our situations.
As I've said so many times, I pray that the Lord will lead and guide every step I take and every word I say. I usually never take the mail down to the mailboxes. My son always does that for me; however, tonight, right before dinner was ready, I decided to go put mail in the mailbox to be picked up tomorrow. There was my neighbor in her front yard, and there was our predestiined meeting.
I stood in the lane talking to her for an hour. I missed dinner. Luckily, they saved me a big plate of enchiladas! We exchaged emotions and stories. We are two women, struggling with similar emotions stemming from completely different situations.
I walked home and while eating my dinner I realized while I was placed in her path tonight. YES, being lonely in a grocery store is uncomfortable. It really stinks. BUT, I come back home to my loving family. I am really never ALONE. The Lord is with me in that grocery store, and every other place I go. The Bible says He will not leave me or forsake me.
I know that just as He helps me get through each day, He is also helping my neighbor. He'll help her feel "complete" again.
In the end, after spending an hour with her, my pity party was over.
It was another answered prayer.
I never gave much thought to grocery shopping. It's something I have done every single week for the last 18 years of my life. I don't dislike it. I actually enjoy the process of shopping for our groceries. I never really gave much thought to the people in the grocery store, until now.
In Illinois, if we were in a hurry to get somewhere, but needed something from the store, my husband would ask to go in and get what we needed because he knew I would see someone I knew and stand and talk. It's the way it always was.
In Illinois, I usually shopped at Wal Mart and Kroger. I knew, or was familiar with, many of the employees at both stores. I always received a smile upon arriving. Usually, within the first five or so minutes of my shopping trip, I would run into someone I knew, or an employee that I saw each week, and the conversations would begin. It was always nice to run into someone at the store that I hadn't seen in years.
Again, this is all something that I hadn't really thought about before. It was just "how it was."
Today, day 23, was "grocery day." Upon entering, I could feel my blood pressure rising. I felt myself getting stressed. I felt like my cart was in everyone's way.
I felt like an alien on another planet. I hated that feeling.
As I continued to put groceries in my cart, I continued to stress. I almost wanted to sceram...or cry. I was determined to just get my groceries and get the heck out of there. But, why??
I got home and went outside for awhile. I started to ponder the situation. Then, it hit me: it's the PEOPLE!
I am a "people person!" I go into the store, and I don't see a famliar face. No matter where I go, I don't see one single solitary person that I know...or even sort of know! Sometimes when I smile at people, they look at me like I'm nuts. When I say, "Hi" to them, they REALLY look at me like I'm nuts!
It becomes easy for me, at times like I described, to miss my comfort zone. I miss familiarity. I miss the faces, landmarks, and even the smells from "home." I believe being completely removed from your comfort zone puts you in a "fragile" state. You "feel" like people are looking at you like you're crazy. You feel like you are in everyone's way. You feel like an alien; however, none of that is really true.
I am looking forward to the day when I am strolling through the grocery store and I see a familiar face! Just thinking about that makes me smile; I know it'll happen...it's just a matter of time.
Eventually, this will be my "comfort zone." My actual house, my home, already feels like that. It's a retreat. I drive around the city, get lost, have people honking at me, etc...Then, I get home, and I feel better. It's my sanctuary. This will all get better, it will just take time. I keep telling myself that, "patience is a virtue!"
My daughter and her grandma had an exciting day! They went to Richard Gere's restaurant. They said it was fabulous. Then, they drove by the Clinton's house. Who knew they lived so close? Then, they just explored our city for awhile. In the evening, they cooked us a delicious dinner of chicken enchiladas and rice. It was quite a treat!
Before dinner I went for a walk. I ran into my neighbor. We have only spoke a couple of times, but she is very sweet and wise. She was married for 48 years to a wonderful man. They had three children and they raised them all in the house she is in now. Today marked the six week anniversary of his death. She was explaining to me that she feels like part of her is gone. She is only half of a
person now. When she goes out around town, she is missing her "other half."
I can't even imagine that. I can't fathom it. How do you recover from that?
I go in public and I just feel lonely or ignored; however, I come home to my husband who loves me and laughs with me and takes care of me. I wake up with him and go to bed with him and it's been like that for 17 years. She goes out, feels lonely and cracked in half, and goes home to an empty house.
There is really no comparison to our situations.
As I've said so many times, I pray that the Lord will lead and guide every step I take and every word I say. I usually never take the mail down to the mailboxes. My son always does that for me; however, tonight, right before dinner was ready, I decided to go put mail in the mailbox to be picked up tomorrow. There was my neighbor in her front yard, and there was our predestiined meeting.
I stood in the lane talking to her for an hour. I missed dinner. Luckily, they saved me a big plate of enchiladas! We exchaged emotions and stories. We are two women, struggling with similar emotions stemming from completely different situations.
I walked home and while eating my dinner I realized while I was placed in her path tonight. YES, being lonely in a grocery store is uncomfortable. It really stinks. BUT, I come back home to my loving family. I am really never ALONE. The Lord is with me in that grocery store, and every other place I go. The Bible says He will not leave me or forsake me.
I know that just as He helps me get through each day, He is also helping my neighbor. He'll help her feel "complete" again.
In the end, after spending an hour with her, my pity party was over.
It was another answered prayer.
Sunday, June 26, 2011
Day 22
Fun-filled, action packed, and exhausting are great terms to describe day 22!
There are a couple of things I wanted to discuss today: God's amazing workmanship and my cool son.
We decided to go to the Bronx Zoo today. It was the most awesome and beautiful zoo I have ever visited. Almost the entire time you are there, it's like you're in the forest. I have never seen so many animals. It was incredible to experience.
Throughout the day, I was in awe of God's workmanship. The beauty in everything around us. The trees, the Bronx River, every feather in every bird, and the beautiful big brown eyes of the gorilla...they are all God's creation. As I pass each exhibit, I enjoy reading about that particular type of animal. I noticed that if the animal lacks speed, then it makes up for that loss with it's incredible hearing. Such is true of this animal:
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How amazing is that? It cannot outrun the lion like the gazelle can, but, instead, it can hear the lion coming in time to make a getaway. It's remarkable.
God has created us in the same way. We must all work together to serve Him and this world. Person A may be gifted in one area, but completely lacking in another. Person B is the same. We all are. We must work together and help each other compensate for the losses, and compliment each other for our gifts.
I was amazed at the details of the animals. The face of the monkey, the feathers of the peacock...God created each and every one. He knows the number of feathers each bird has, and He knows the number of hair on our heads. It's comforting to know and accept that as truth. What a true gift He has given us...the gift of the amazing earth that we live on.
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The gorilla exhibit blew me away. I stood for about a half an hour just looking into the eyes of this huge gorilla. He would look back at me, then look around, then simply stare off into space as if he were in deep thought. He had beautiful big brown eyes. I literally could have stood there all day watching him. He was so human-like. It was almost as if I found myself feeling sorry for him. He looked so smart, and seemed so aware of what was going on. He was looking at me as if to say, "Seriously, you are choosing to stand here and stare at me locked up inside this glass?" I fell in love with a gorilla today! I really did! After staring at something straight in the eyes for 30 minutes, a connection begins to form.
As I watched that intelligent gorilla sit there, trapped, with absolutely no way out, I started to think:
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This gorilla is smart, he has enormous strength, and he could probably escape if he really put his mind to it. But, he doesn't. He really is trapped behind that glass with everyone staring at him all day long. Sometimes, I feel like that gorilla. I'm intelligent, I am physically and mentally strong, and I could probably escape some glass cages that are holding me back if I really wanted to. Anxiety used to be that glass cage for me. It boxed me in and held me captive. I was strong enough to escape, but I didn't...for YEARS! Finally, with a lot of prayer and support, I broke the glass cage that surrounded me. I destroyed it. I no longer sit there, looking out, watching everyone watch me deal with the anxiety.
There are other issues I still keep boxed up in the glass cage that I am plenty strong to overcome: body image, am I really "good enough," are a couple that I continue to work through. I know I was made in the image and likeness of God. My body is fine. I have arms, legs, a working and strong and healthy body...so I'm not a 5ft. 9 in. with a DD bra size! I have to accept that. Am I really good enough? Well, the Lord made me because he saw that I WAS good enough. So, I obviously know the answer to that one too; still, I have to break out of that box and set myself free of those issues.
Lastly...my son. He is a remarkable gift straight from the Lord Jesus Christ.
He is the most curious child I have ever encountered. He has what I refer to as an "engineer's mind." Today at the zoo, instread of looking at the animals like everyone else, he was finding every electrical outlet and trying to figure out what it goes to and what it makes "run." He would investigate each cage and what was holding it together and looking at the underground water systems that kept water in each exhibit. That is just how his brain works; it is how he was "wired."
He probably asks, and I am not exaggerating, at least 200 questions per day. Most of these questions I simply can't answer, so he'll ask that we go "figure it out." Simply saying to him, "I don't know," just doesn't work.
He has more energy that ten kids put together. It is energy that never stops. He goes full speed ahead from the time his feet hit the floor in the morning until he is in bed at night. He
He is LOUD. God blessed him with a great big voice. I can't wait to see what he does with that voice some day.
He loves to "pester." He's the king of pestering...especially his sister. As far as that goes, I know he is a six-year-old boy, and some good old-fashioned pestering should be expected.
Does his 200 questions a day feel like a burden sometimes? YES
Does his LOUD voice become overwhelming? YES
Does his ENERGY wear me out after a short while? YES
Does his pestering annoy the heck out of me? YES
Does his neverending curiosity tire me? YES
However, this is how my precious son was made. This is how the God of the universe made my little boy. THAT is my baby's personality...the personality and the characteristics that he was given. Jesus knew my child would be this way before he was even born, and, he trusted me to be his mom. What a job and what an honor!
What will this amazing boy do when he grows up? Most importantly, I pray he serves the Lord with all of his heart and is leading others to the Lord as well. I know he'll be bold, and LOUD about it! I can't even begin to fathom the contributions he will make in this world.
His curiosity, energy, and intelligence could cure the world of a disease. He would have the boldness to carry out his plan and make it pass. His pestering...well, he would just pester the people in charge until they listened to him and let him demonstrate his research.
He brings out every emotion in me to the extreme...love, frustration, laughter and tears...He is my bright beautiful boy, and I am his mom. What did I do to deserve such perfection?
Thank you, Jesus, for my son.
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There are a couple of things I wanted to discuss today: God's amazing workmanship and my cool son.
We decided to go to the Bronx Zoo today. It was the most awesome and beautiful zoo I have ever visited. Almost the entire time you are there, it's like you're in the forest. I have never seen so many animals. It was incredible to experience.
Throughout the day, I was in awe of God's workmanship. The beauty in everything around us. The trees, the Bronx River, every feather in every bird, and the beautiful big brown eyes of the gorilla...they are all God's creation. As I pass each exhibit, I enjoy reading about that particular type of animal. I noticed that if the animal lacks speed, then it makes up for that loss with it's incredible hearing. Such is true of this animal:
God has created us in the same way. We must all work together to serve Him and this world. Person A may be gifted in one area, but completely lacking in another. Person B is the same. We all are. We must work together and help each other compensate for the losses, and compliment each other for our gifts.
I was amazed at the details of the animals. The face of the monkey, the feathers of the peacock...God created each and every one. He knows the number of feathers each bird has, and He knows the number of hair on our heads. It's comforting to know and accept that as truth. What a true gift He has given us...the gift of the amazing earth that we live on.
As I watched that intelligent gorilla sit there, trapped, with absolutely no way out, I started to think:
There are other issues I still keep boxed up in the glass cage that I am plenty strong to overcome: body image, am I really "good enough," are a couple that I continue to work through. I know I was made in the image and likeness of God. My body is fine. I have arms, legs, a working and strong and healthy body...so I'm not a 5ft. 9 in. with a DD bra size! I have to accept that. Am I really good enough? Well, the Lord made me because he saw that I WAS good enough. So, I obviously know the answer to that one too; still, I have to break out of that box and set myself free of those issues.
Lastly...my son. He is a remarkable gift straight from the Lord Jesus Christ.
He is the most curious child I have ever encountered. He has what I refer to as an "engineer's mind." Today at the zoo, instread of looking at the animals like everyone else, he was finding every electrical outlet and trying to figure out what it goes to and what it makes "run." He would investigate each cage and what was holding it together and looking at the underground water systems that kept water in each exhibit. That is just how his brain works; it is how he was "wired."
He probably asks, and I am not exaggerating, at least 200 questions per day. Most of these questions I simply can't answer, so he'll ask that we go "figure it out." Simply saying to him, "I don't know," just doesn't work.
He has more energy that ten kids put together. It is energy that never stops. He goes full speed ahead from the time his feet hit the floor in the morning until he is in bed at night. He
He is LOUD. God blessed him with a great big voice. I can't wait to see what he does with that voice some day.
He loves to "pester." He's the king of pestering...especially his sister. As far as that goes, I know he is a six-year-old boy, and some good old-fashioned pestering should be expected.
Does his 200 questions a day feel like a burden sometimes? YES
Does his LOUD voice become overwhelming? YES
Does his ENERGY wear me out after a short while? YES
Does his pestering annoy the heck out of me? YES
Does his neverending curiosity tire me? YES
However, this is how my precious son was made. This is how the God of the universe made my little boy. THAT is my baby's personality...the personality and the characteristics that he was given. Jesus knew my child would be this way before he was even born, and, he trusted me to be his mom. What a job and what an honor!
What will this amazing boy do when he grows up? Most importantly, I pray he serves the Lord with all of his heart and is leading others to the Lord as well. I know he'll be bold, and LOUD about it! I can't even begin to fathom the contributions he will make in this world.
His curiosity, energy, and intelligence could cure the world of a disease. He would have the boldness to carry out his plan and make it pass. His pestering...well, he would just pester the people in charge until they listened to him and let him demonstrate his research.
He brings out every emotion in me to the extreme...love, frustration, laughter and tears...He is my bright beautiful boy, and I am his mom. What did I do to deserve such perfection?
Thank you, Jesus, for my son.
Saturday, June 25, 2011
Day 21
Whew! It's been a long but productive day!
We all had some "pool time" today, which was nice! We worked out in the yard quite a bit.
Finally, it was time to go to the La Guardia Airport and pick up my mother-in-law! We were so excited! The kids could not wait to get there! The traffic into the city was INSANE! We were just sitting still for so long! We still made it in time!
We pulled up to the passenger pick up area and there she was! We were all waving and my son was saying, "There she is!" It was comforting to see a familiar face from home!
We drove to a DELICIOUS italian restaurant in Queens. It was the best Italian food I've ever had. We were full an happy!
By the time we got back to our village it was dark, but we still took her downtown and just drove around a little bit. We wanted her to see the restaurants, shops, and the business of it on a Saturday night. We're looking forward to taking her down during the day and going into some of the shops, restaurants and delis.
We got to our house and my son was SO excited to show her around. It was just absolutely adorable! He wanted her to close her eyes as we were pulling onto our lane so that she'd be surprised. He was just so proud to show someone he loves his new home. It made me feel good.
She really loved our house and I can't wait until she sees it tomorrow, in the daytime, so that she can take in the views! I LOVE the outdoors, and we have such a nice view of "nature." It's very calming.
I am on Day 5 with no artificial sweeteners; I sure do miss my Diet Mt. Dew! I'm sticking to this. The past three days have been the best I've felt "headache wise" in 4.5 months! Thank you, Jesus!
The kids are still begging for a dog; I am so torn. I think I want one too...Great!! I'm still undecided on that issue!
Jesus is my rock. I see signs of his love and mercy every single day. I feel so close to Him and I hear Him like I never have before. I believe it's because I know how much I need Him during this move. I have to rely on Him for so much. I trust Him to provide me with companionship when I'm lonely, wisdom when I need direction, and peace when I'm feeling anxious.
If you seek Him, he shows up.
We all had some "pool time" today, which was nice! We worked out in the yard quite a bit.
Finally, it was time to go to the La Guardia Airport and pick up my mother-in-law! We were so excited! The kids could not wait to get there! The traffic into the city was INSANE! We were just sitting still for so long! We still made it in time!
We pulled up to the passenger pick up area and there she was! We were all waving and my son was saying, "There she is!" It was comforting to see a familiar face from home!
We drove to a DELICIOUS italian restaurant in Queens. It was the best Italian food I've ever had. We were full an happy!
By the time we got back to our village it was dark, but we still took her downtown and just drove around a little bit. We wanted her to see the restaurants, shops, and the business of it on a Saturday night. We're looking forward to taking her down during the day and going into some of the shops, restaurants and delis.
We got to our house and my son was SO excited to show her around. It was just absolutely adorable! He wanted her to close her eyes as we were pulling onto our lane so that she'd be surprised. He was just so proud to show someone he loves his new home. It made me feel good.
She really loved our house and I can't wait until she sees it tomorrow, in the daytime, so that she can take in the views! I LOVE the outdoors, and we have such a nice view of "nature." It's very calming.
I am on Day 5 with no artificial sweeteners; I sure do miss my Diet Mt. Dew! I'm sticking to this. The past three days have been the best I've felt "headache wise" in 4.5 months! Thank you, Jesus!
The kids are still begging for a dog; I am so torn. I think I want one too...Great!! I'm still undecided on that issue!
Jesus is my rock. I see signs of his love and mercy every single day. I feel so close to Him and I hear Him like I never have before. I believe it's because I know how much I need Him during this move. I have to rely on Him for so much. I trust Him to provide me with companionship when I'm lonely, wisdom when I need direction, and peace when I'm feeling anxious.
If you seek Him, he shows up.
Friday, June 24, 2011
Day 20
I know I say this often, but, "What a day!!"
The kids and I worked, and worked, and worked some more today! We finally tackled the basement! I am pleased to say that it is officially "guest ready!" it's all set up like an apartment down there. We are thrilled with how it turned out!
My mother-in-law arrives tomorrow and we can hardly wait! I just know it's going to be an awesome visit! My son probably won't even be able to sleep tonight!
We treated ourselves tonight to pizza from our favorite local pizzaria. After that, we had a "popcorn party." Well, that is what my son called it! We opened all of the popcorn my friend from home sent us and got a movie.
This is really starting to feel like home. I'm not sure if it's because we have so many family and friends coming to visit, or if it is just because I am becoming more familiar with my surroundings, or the fact that the house is almost complete. I know the biggest reason is because God is filling me with His peace. I know He is! He also has placed His loving hands on my children and my husband. My husband absolutely loves his job. That is so important! I am so happy for him and so proud of him! My kids are laughing more and I see each day that their comfort level is increasing.
My daughter and I have started working out again and we are really enjoying it and seeing the benefits from it; we aren't just seeing the physical benefits, but we also feel the emotional benefits from it. We have both increased the miles that we run. That has been exciting for us.
I began having horrible migraine style headaches a little over four months ago. I usually get between two and four per day. I have has an MRI, an EEG, and EKG and a CT Scan. All of the tests have come back perfect. No doctor or neurologist has been able to really help me. I have been on so many medications in hopes that the doctors would finally finf "the one" wonder drug that would help me. Finally, I realized none of the medications were the answer. They were only causing horrible side effects and were not preventing my headaches. I stopped taking them all.
Three days ago I found a family doctor here in New York and when I went to meet her I told her all about my headache situation. She asked me if I consumed many artificial sweeteners. She asked if I put anything in my coffee or tea or drank diet drinks. I do all of that...every day. She told me to stop doing that immediately. She wasn't sure if it is causing them, but she is sure that it is making them worse.
Then, last night, my cousin from Kentucky called me and he has been having the exact same issues. his neurologist told him to eliminate all artificial sweeteners, and when he did, he has great results. I felt like the new doctor, and my cousin calling me were an answer to my prayer. I had never heard anything like that about the artificial sweeteners. So, since Tuesday, I have avoided artificial sweeteners...including my beloved Diet Mt Dew. I HAVE seen some improvement!! The past two days I have had fewer headache symptoms that I have had in the past 4.5 months!
God is good. Even when I feel invisible. Even when I wonder if He really hears me; he does! I often wonder why my prayers aren't answered right away, or why they are not answered the way I feel like they should be answered. It just all requires faith that He sees the big picture and I can't. There is just no way to understand everything and I am certainly learning that I can't control everything. When I am going through my, "why is this happening" attitude, Ijust remind myself to put my concern in the "I don't understand this and never will" file deep in my brain, lock it up, and leave it there. There is no reason to keep revisiting it.
Wow...that has been, and continues to be a HUGE work in process. I'm so glad God is patient with me!
The kids and I worked, and worked, and worked some more today! We finally tackled the basement! I am pleased to say that it is officially "guest ready!" it's all set up like an apartment down there. We are thrilled with how it turned out!
My mother-in-law arrives tomorrow and we can hardly wait! I just know it's going to be an awesome visit! My son probably won't even be able to sleep tonight!
We treated ourselves tonight to pizza from our favorite local pizzaria. After that, we had a "popcorn party." Well, that is what my son called it! We opened all of the popcorn my friend from home sent us and got a movie.
This is really starting to feel like home. I'm not sure if it's because we have so many family and friends coming to visit, or if it is just because I am becoming more familiar with my surroundings, or the fact that the house is almost complete. I know the biggest reason is because God is filling me with His peace. I know He is! He also has placed His loving hands on my children and my husband. My husband absolutely loves his job. That is so important! I am so happy for him and so proud of him! My kids are laughing more and I see each day that their comfort level is increasing.
My daughter and I have started working out again and we are really enjoying it and seeing the benefits from it; we aren't just seeing the physical benefits, but we also feel the emotional benefits from it. We have both increased the miles that we run. That has been exciting for us.
I began having horrible migraine style headaches a little over four months ago. I usually get between two and four per day. I have has an MRI, an EEG, and EKG and a CT Scan. All of the tests have come back perfect. No doctor or neurologist has been able to really help me. I have been on so many medications in hopes that the doctors would finally finf "the one" wonder drug that would help me. Finally, I realized none of the medications were the answer. They were only causing horrible side effects and were not preventing my headaches. I stopped taking them all.
Three days ago I found a family doctor here in New York and when I went to meet her I told her all about my headache situation. She asked me if I consumed many artificial sweeteners. She asked if I put anything in my coffee or tea or drank diet drinks. I do all of that...every day. She told me to stop doing that immediately. She wasn't sure if it is causing them, but she is sure that it is making them worse.
Then, last night, my cousin from Kentucky called me and he has been having the exact same issues. his neurologist told him to eliminate all artificial sweeteners, and when he did, he has great results. I felt like the new doctor, and my cousin calling me were an answer to my prayer. I had never heard anything like that about the artificial sweeteners. So, since Tuesday, I have avoided artificial sweeteners...including my beloved Diet Mt Dew. I HAVE seen some improvement!! The past two days I have had fewer headache symptoms that I have had in the past 4.5 months!
God is good. Even when I feel invisible. Even when I wonder if He really hears me; he does! I often wonder why my prayers aren't answered right away, or why they are not answered the way I feel like they should be answered. It just all requires faith that He sees the big picture and I can't. There is just no way to understand everything and I am certainly learning that I can't control everything. When I am going through my, "why is this happening" attitude, Ijust remind myself to put my concern in the "I don't understand this and never will" file deep in my brain, lock it up, and leave it there. There is no reason to keep revisiting it.
Wow...that has been, and continues to be a HUGE work in process. I'm so glad God is patient with me!
Thursday, June 23, 2011
Day 19
It's hard to believe it's been 19 days! Wow, how things change!
My son had a friend over today. We visited a church two Sundays ago. The pastor was so kind and he had a son who is my son's age. We have been emailing, and decided it would be great for the boys to get together and play. Today was the day! My son sat at the front door for an hour waiting for them to arrive!
The boys played like they had known each other their entire lives! It was interesting and adorable! We are planning to get them together again soon, possibly even tomorrow!
My daughter and I hung lots of pictures today and did lots of organizing. I must say, we were quite impressed with our skills! Everything turned out nicely! I always get nervous when I start nailing a bunch of nail holes in the walls, but the damage was minimal and we did a nice job...and had a good time doing it!
I am so proud of my daughter. She has become so independent and confident. She just gets her GPS, takes off, and does what needs to be done! She found a job, has helped me immensely, and is a joy to be around. I love her so much! Once we're here for awhile, and she really starts meeting people, they are going to realize what a jewel she is. She is a gift.
Two days until my mother-in-law gets here! We're so excited! I know we'll have so much fun and enjoy lots of laughs. The kids are so excited to see Grandma again!
It was storming here today. There was much flooding and closed roads. It was dark and dreary. We went to the front door and noticed a white box sitting there. We brought it in and opened it. It was from Del's Popcorn Shop from our hometown! My best friend from high school and her family sent it to us! What a treat! I am so thankful for wonderful friends! We want to eat it so badly, but we are saving it for a weekend treat!
When we first arrived here, I was so scared. I did my fair share of crying. I would try to leave the house to get somewhere and the traffic and parkways would just freak me out. I felt lost. I felt lonely. I just wanted to go home. Everything was unfamiliar, my children were struggling, and I felt like my life was spinning out of control.
Isaiah 40:31 reads, "They that wait upon the Lord shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings like eagles; they shall run and not be weary; they shall walk, and not faint.
I've prayed and sought the Lord. I had to depend on Him completely; I couldn't do it on my own. I felt lost and I needed Him. He has renewed my strength. I am not weary. I am not down. I feel revived and so hopeful. I see the same traits in my children. I am definitely learning a lot about myself. I have realized areas that I need to change, and I have also realized areas that I am successful in but never knew it until now.
I know I am stronger than I thought I was, and that is nice to know.
The saying goes, "You are only as happy as your least happy child." I believe this quote wholeheartedly, because I live it every single day. I think every parent probably does.
Every day, as I see my children adjusting and smiling and discovering, my heart is happy.
My son had a friend over today. We visited a church two Sundays ago. The pastor was so kind and he had a son who is my son's age. We have been emailing, and decided it would be great for the boys to get together and play. Today was the day! My son sat at the front door for an hour waiting for them to arrive!
The boys played like they had known each other their entire lives! It was interesting and adorable! We are planning to get them together again soon, possibly even tomorrow!
My daughter and I hung lots of pictures today and did lots of organizing. I must say, we were quite impressed with our skills! Everything turned out nicely! I always get nervous when I start nailing a bunch of nail holes in the walls, but the damage was minimal and we did a nice job...and had a good time doing it!
I am so proud of my daughter. She has become so independent and confident. She just gets her GPS, takes off, and does what needs to be done! She found a job, has helped me immensely, and is a joy to be around. I love her so much! Once we're here for awhile, and she really starts meeting people, they are going to realize what a jewel she is. She is a gift.
Two days until my mother-in-law gets here! We're so excited! I know we'll have so much fun and enjoy lots of laughs. The kids are so excited to see Grandma again!
It was storming here today. There was much flooding and closed roads. It was dark and dreary. We went to the front door and noticed a white box sitting there. We brought it in and opened it. It was from Del's Popcorn Shop from our hometown! My best friend from high school and her family sent it to us! What a treat! I am so thankful for wonderful friends! We want to eat it so badly, but we are saving it for a weekend treat!
When we first arrived here, I was so scared. I did my fair share of crying. I would try to leave the house to get somewhere and the traffic and parkways would just freak me out. I felt lost. I felt lonely. I just wanted to go home. Everything was unfamiliar, my children were struggling, and I felt like my life was spinning out of control.
Isaiah 40:31 reads, "They that wait upon the Lord shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings like eagles; they shall run and not be weary; they shall walk, and not faint.
I've prayed and sought the Lord. I had to depend on Him completely; I couldn't do it on my own. I felt lost and I needed Him. He has renewed my strength. I am not weary. I am not down. I feel revived and so hopeful. I see the same traits in my children. I am definitely learning a lot about myself. I have realized areas that I need to change, and I have also realized areas that I am successful in but never knew it until now.
I know I am stronger than I thought I was, and that is nice to know.
The saying goes, "You are only as happy as your least happy child." I believe this quote wholeheartedly, because I live it every single day. I think every parent probably does.
Every day, as I see my children adjusting and smiling and discovering, my heart is happy.
Wednesday, June 22, 2011
Day 18
It rained like crazy here today; a perfect excuse to stay inside and work!
My daughter and I hung lots of pictures and put some things into storage. We really worked together and got a lot accomplished!
I needed to go register my son for soccer. I wanted to wait until after 3:00 to go because parking is free after 3. I was in the line of traffic waiting to turn into the correct building, right by the train station.
The line consisted of a city bus, my van, and then a streaming line of cars behind me. I began to hear lots of honking. It became more and more frequent. I began to wonder what all the commotion was about.
All of the sudden, the bus driver got out of his bus and came over to my side and started waving his arm flagging me to go around the bus!!!!!!!
Oh my goodness! All the honking was directed to me! I didn't know I could do that! The street seemed too narrow and the traffic was so fast, I just didn't think it would be safe. Well, now I know.
It doesn't matter how fast the traffic is flowing, it doesn't matter how narrow the street...you just GO!
I was so embarassed at first, but then I just started laughing.
I am learning. Slowly but surely, I am learning this new lifestyle. I was just proud of myself for remembering that parking was free in my location after 3! I was happy to save some money!
I am trying to learn all of the recycling and garbage rules, the school rules, the village rules...crazy!
I'll be leaving the Illinois plates on my car for quite awhile because that can always be my excuse..."I'm not from here, so sorry!!"
In other news, our first visitor arrives two days from tomorrow! Yay! Then our second visitor arrives 5 days later. They'll both be here to celebrate my daughter's 17th birthday!
The kids are still begging me for a dog. I, being a major dog lover, am really having a hard time with this. I want to give in. I never thought I'd be the parent to say, "No, we can't have a dog." That's just not me. I'm really undecided. I say "no" to a lot of things, but this one is difficult.
I have been praying for people to come into our lives; people that we are destined to meet and connect with.
I emailed a lady on a list about school supplies for my son for the fall. She emailed back and then called me. She was so helpful and asked if I had any questions about the community, school, etc...She invited me to the park this Monday morning so that our little boys can play and she can answer some of my questions.
I'm really looking forward to it. I love meeting new people!
I've got peace like a river, joy like a fountain, and love like an ocean; I also have lots of hope...
My daughter and I hung lots of pictures and put some things into storage. We really worked together and got a lot accomplished!
I needed to go register my son for soccer. I wanted to wait until after 3:00 to go because parking is free after 3. I was in the line of traffic waiting to turn into the correct building, right by the train station.
The line consisted of a city bus, my van, and then a streaming line of cars behind me. I began to hear lots of honking. It became more and more frequent. I began to wonder what all the commotion was about.
All of the sudden, the bus driver got out of his bus and came over to my side and started waving his arm flagging me to go around the bus!!!!!!!
Oh my goodness! All the honking was directed to me! I didn't know I could do that! The street seemed too narrow and the traffic was so fast, I just didn't think it would be safe. Well, now I know.
It doesn't matter how fast the traffic is flowing, it doesn't matter how narrow the street...you just GO!
I was so embarassed at first, but then I just started laughing.
I am learning. Slowly but surely, I am learning this new lifestyle. I was just proud of myself for remembering that parking was free in my location after 3! I was happy to save some money!
I am trying to learn all of the recycling and garbage rules, the school rules, the village rules...crazy!
I'll be leaving the Illinois plates on my car for quite awhile because that can always be my excuse..."I'm not from here, so sorry!!"
In other news, our first visitor arrives two days from tomorrow! Yay! Then our second visitor arrives 5 days later. They'll both be here to celebrate my daughter's 17th birthday!
The kids are still begging me for a dog. I, being a major dog lover, am really having a hard time with this. I want to give in. I never thought I'd be the parent to say, "No, we can't have a dog." That's just not me. I'm really undecided. I say "no" to a lot of things, but this one is difficult.
I have been praying for people to come into our lives; people that we are destined to meet and connect with.
I emailed a lady on a list about school supplies for my son for the fall. She emailed back and then called me. She was so helpful and asked if I had any questions about the community, school, etc...She invited me to the park this Monday morning so that our little boys can play and she can answer some of my questions.
I'm really looking forward to it. I love meeting new people!
I've got peace like a river, joy like a fountain, and love like an ocean; I also have lots of hope...
Tuesday, June 21, 2011
Day 17
Our nights tend to get crazy, so as opposed to waiting until right before bed to do this, I am doing it before we eat dinner!
While still in Illinois, we LOVED our doctors. We were so comfortable there, and I thought I would NEVER find a doctor that I liked again. I started praying about it and researching docs in the area. I made an appointment this morning to meet our new doctor, Dr. Morrison, and try to get some sort of a "feel" for the office. It was a great experience! Dr. Morrison was wonderful! We found our doctor! What a relief!
Day 17...I miss my family. I miss my best friend. I really do. I miss just being with them. Even when we were bored, it was fine; we were bored together.
I think we are to a point where things are starting to get settled; the boxes are unpacked, the house if is fairly organized, etc...Now what?
Although we have a pool, we are thinking of joining the local pool as a way of meeting people. My idea way of meeting people isn't exactly in a swimsuit, but as the saying goes, "Ya gotta do what ya gotta do."
The beauty here is amazing. I really focus on it and thank God for it. It is a blessing to be surrounding by it.
One year ago I would've never guessed I'd be writing a blog about our "journey" to New York. Although, I can say, that one year ago I was ready for some sort of change. I knew a change was coming. It's hard to explain. That's why, when they asked my husband to think about making this move, I really wasn't surprised.
Now that the house is mostly done, we will begin to venture out and really start exploring our area and the surrounding areas. There is so much to do here; it's overwhelming.
I am really meditating on the verse "Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and lean not on your own understanding. In all your ways, acknowledge Him, and he will make direct your paths." Proverbs 3:5
I use my GPS to get everywhere. I can't even imagine leaving this house without it! There is really no telling where I'd end up without it. Sometimes, even with the GPS, if I'm not paying close attention, I'll miss my exit, or take a wrong turn. Even though the roads are all highlighted for me on the screen, I still take the wrong path!
That's how my relationship with the Lord is as well. I am struggling with headaches, and they are becoming...well, I won't get into it. I know I am HEALED. Anyway, I get sidetracked. I get busy. I find things to do other than spend time with Him in His Word. He is my GPS. He has all the roads I should take highlighted for me; HOWEVER, I have to choose to listen. I have to be still and LISTEN. It also requires faith. Sometimes my GPS tells me to turn Right and I'm thinking, "That can't be right!" I have faith that this little gadget knows what it's talking about. My relationship with my Savior requires faith as well. I have to believe that He knows me. He knows what I need. He knows which people I need in my life. He loves me so much and wants me to actively use my faith, pursue him, and believe.
I do. No matter the circumstance. No matter how I feel. On the good days and the not so good days (there are no bad days)...my faith is strong. I just have to listen and trust so he can direct my path...
While still in Illinois, we LOVED our doctors. We were so comfortable there, and I thought I would NEVER find a doctor that I liked again. I started praying about it and researching docs in the area. I made an appointment this morning to meet our new doctor, Dr. Morrison, and try to get some sort of a "feel" for the office. It was a great experience! Dr. Morrison was wonderful! We found our doctor! What a relief!
Day 17...I miss my family. I miss my best friend. I really do. I miss just being with them. Even when we were bored, it was fine; we were bored together.
I think we are to a point where things are starting to get settled; the boxes are unpacked, the house if is fairly organized, etc...Now what?
Although we have a pool, we are thinking of joining the local pool as a way of meeting people. My idea way of meeting people isn't exactly in a swimsuit, but as the saying goes, "Ya gotta do what ya gotta do."
The beauty here is amazing. I really focus on it and thank God for it. It is a blessing to be surrounding by it.
One year ago I would've never guessed I'd be writing a blog about our "journey" to New York. Although, I can say, that one year ago I was ready for some sort of change. I knew a change was coming. It's hard to explain. That's why, when they asked my husband to think about making this move, I really wasn't surprised.
Now that the house is mostly done, we will begin to venture out and really start exploring our area and the surrounding areas. There is so much to do here; it's overwhelming.
I am really meditating on the verse "Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and lean not on your own understanding. In all your ways, acknowledge Him, and he will make direct your paths." Proverbs 3:5
I use my GPS to get everywhere. I can't even imagine leaving this house without it! There is really no telling where I'd end up without it. Sometimes, even with the GPS, if I'm not paying close attention, I'll miss my exit, or take a wrong turn. Even though the roads are all highlighted for me on the screen, I still take the wrong path!
That's how my relationship with the Lord is as well. I am struggling with headaches, and they are becoming...well, I won't get into it. I know I am HEALED. Anyway, I get sidetracked. I get busy. I find things to do other than spend time with Him in His Word. He is my GPS. He has all the roads I should take highlighted for me; HOWEVER, I have to choose to listen. I have to be still and LISTEN. It also requires faith. Sometimes my GPS tells me to turn Right and I'm thinking, "That can't be right!" I have faith that this little gadget knows what it's talking about. My relationship with my Savior requires faith as well. I have to believe that He knows me. He knows what I need. He knows which people I need in my life. He loves me so much and wants me to actively use my faith, pursue him, and believe.
I do. No matter the circumstance. No matter how I feel. On the good days and the not so good days (there are no bad days)...my faith is strong. I just have to listen and trust so he can direct my path...
Monday, June 20, 2011
Day 16
We ate dinner tonight at 9PM; that is how crazy this day has been.
I started the registration process for my kids for school. Seriously, it's like I am enrolling them into an ivy league college! I can't believe this! I got piles of paperwork done, and tomorrow we are heading to the schools to turn in what we have and see what else they need. I've never seen anything like it.
I found a pediatrician for my son and a family doctor for the rest of us. We have an appointment in the morning. I hope it all works out and we don't have to switch. I loved our doctors back in Illinois; these doctors have pretty big shoes to fill!
The kids and I went on a little shopping adventure today. I made it to the shopping center just fine, but on the way home, I must taken a wrong turn. When I say, "we ended up in the woods," I am not kidding.
I ended up on a road that said, "Dead End;" however, it looked like it was going to continue. I figured it was just on old sign that they never took down.
Finally, we end up in the woods at the end of the street. There seemed to be a "sort of" path. I started to drive in and turn around, but there was a huge hill, and I was afraid if I backed up to turn around we'd go down the hill! So, I just kept going straight through the woods!!!! I just kept thinkin, "What if this little path stops and there are only trees and I can't turn around?"
My son, as innocent as can be said, "I don't remember going this way!" It was hilarious!
Usually, my son is very cautious when we're driving. He likes to know where we're going, how
we'll get there, which direction we're going, etc...Well, lately, with all of my driving, getting lost, getting honked at, and more, he doesn't even mind. He just goes with it and doesn't mind one bit.
We are learning together, I guess. It's only been 15 days, but my confidence level has increased by leaps and bounds. I can't believe I'm going the places I'm going and doing the things I'm doing.
The Lord says, "Fear not, for I am with you." I have always "feared" lots of different things. Most of the things I fear and worry about are things WAY beyond my control, or things I can't change no matter what I do. I am working through the fear. I'll keep working until I don't have to work anymore because it's completely GONE!
Our deer came back tonight while we were out talking to a neighbor. He showed up about the same time he did last night, except tonight he even came closer. He doesn't seem to mind us being there at all. It's magnificient.
We have our first visitor in 4 days from tomorrow! My mother-in-law will be here! We are looking so forward to her visit! In 9 days, my cousin will be here to visit!
We are continuing to work on the house; we've slowed down. The weather has been so beautiful, so we just take off outside to enjoy it.
The kids are begging, and I mean begging for a pet. We are trying to put it off because we know once summer camp starts, and then school begins, they will be too busy to care. Well, maybe not, but that's what we're hoping for.
Goodnight, friends!
I started the registration process for my kids for school. Seriously, it's like I am enrolling them into an ivy league college! I can't believe this! I got piles of paperwork done, and tomorrow we are heading to the schools to turn in what we have and see what else they need. I've never seen anything like it.
I found a pediatrician for my son and a family doctor for the rest of us. We have an appointment in the morning. I hope it all works out and we don't have to switch. I loved our doctors back in Illinois; these doctors have pretty big shoes to fill!
The kids and I went on a little shopping adventure today. I made it to the shopping center just fine, but on the way home, I must taken a wrong turn. When I say, "we ended up in the woods," I am not kidding.
I ended up on a road that said, "Dead End;" however, it looked like it was going to continue. I figured it was just on old sign that they never took down.
Finally, we end up in the woods at the end of the street. There seemed to be a "sort of" path. I started to drive in and turn around, but there was a huge hill, and I was afraid if I backed up to turn around we'd go down the hill! So, I just kept going straight through the woods!!!! I just kept thinkin, "What if this little path stops and there are only trees and I can't turn around?"
My son, as innocent as can be said, "I don't remember going this way!" It was hilarious!
Usually, my son is very cautious when we're driving. He likes to know where we're going, how
we'll get there, which direction we're going, etc...Well, lately, with all of my driving, getting lost, getting honked at, and more, he doesn't even mind. He just goes with it and doesn't mind one bit.
We are learning together, I guess. It's only been 15 days, but my confidence level has increased by leaps and bounds. I can't believe I'm going the places I'm going and doing the things I'm doing.
The Lord says, "Fear not, for I am with you." I have always "feared" lots of different things. Most of the things I fear and worry about are things WAY beyond my control, or things I can't change no matter what I do. I am working through the fear. I'll keep working until I don't have to work anymore because it's completely GONE!
Our deer came back tonight while we were out talking to a neighbor. He showed up about the same time he did last night, except tonight he even came closer. He doesn't seem to mind us being there at all. It's magnificient.
We have our first visitor in 4 days from tomorrow! My mother-in-law will be here! We are looking so forward to her visit! In 9 days, my cousin will be here to visit!
We are continuing to work on the house; we've slowed down. The weather has been so beautiful, so we just take off outside to enjoy it.
The kids are begging, and I mean begging for a pet. We are trying to put it off because we know once summer camp starts, and then school begins, they will be too busy to care. Well, maybe not, but that's what we're hoping for.
Goodnight, friends!
Sunday, June 19, 2011
Day 15
Day 15...Father's Day!
My husband is the best father to our children. He knows them both so well. He adores them, and they know it. He listens to them and spends time with him, even when he is exhausted from working so hard. He is loyal and kind.
My children are so blessed.
When one grows up with a fabulous dad, it is so easy to take it for granted. Kids don't do this intentionally, they just get used to it, and don't really know anything different. It isn't until they are grown, on their own, and beginning their own families, that the realization that, "Wow...I had an amazing and caring dad," really sets in.
I, as an adult with children, feel this way about my own dad. I had no idea what I had in him. He was brilliant and caring. He loved us, and still loves us, so much. I see now all the effort and sacrifice he put into raising my sisters and I. I appreciate and love him so much.
This was the first Father's Day, ever, that I was not able to be with my dad. My second cousin, and her husband invited us to a barbecue with her husband's family. Wow! We were welcomed with open arms...literally! They welcomed us into their home and treated us like we were a part of their family. We had such a great time and they made the most delicious food! It was so awesome to be around a large group of people again, and laugh, and eat, and talk, and just have a great time.
When we left I called my dad and we talked. He's a joy. He just got a new Droid phone and he just absolutely hates it! It cracks me up! I told him to get one of the young guys he works with to teach him how to use it, and once he learns, he'll love it!
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Tonight, we were out shooting hoops in the driveway, and a visitor who frequently appears at night showed up...a medium sized buck. He doesn't seem to care that we're out, being loud. He shows up, walks around the yard a bit, and watches us. He is beautiful. It is something we look forward to and love we just love it when he shows up!
I love my family so much. I love that we are exploring this new "normal" together. We are learning so much about each other. I am amazed by their strength and determination.
Thefab4 are doing ok...every day is a gift.
My husband is the best father to our children. He knows them both so well. He adores them, and they know it. He listens to them and spends time with him, even when he is exhausted from working so hard. He is loyal and kind.
My children are so blessed.
When one grows up with a fabulous dad, it is so easy to take it for granted. Kids don't do this intentionally, they just get used to it, and don't really know anything different. It isn't until they are grown, on their own, and beginning their own families, that the realization that, "Wow...I had an amazing and caring dad," really sets in.
I, as an adult with children, feel this way about my own dad. I had no idea what I had in him. He was brilliant and caring. He loved us, and still loves us, so much. I see now all the effort and sacrifice he put into raising my sisters and I. I appreciate and love him so much.
This was the first Father's Day, ever, that I was not able to be with my dad. My second cousin, and her husband invited us to a barbecue with her husband's family. Wow! We were welcomed with open arms...literally! They welcomed us into their home and treated us like we were a part of their family. We had such a great time and they made the most delicious food! It was so awesome to be around a large group of people again, and laugh, and eat, and talk, and just have a great time.
When we left I called my dad and we talked. He's a joy. He just got a new Droid phone and he just absolutely hates it! It cracks me up! I told him to get one of the young guys he works with to teach him how to use it, and once he learns, he'll love it!
I love my family so much. I love that we are exploring this new "normal" together. We are learning so much about each other. I am amazed by their strength and determination.
Thefab4 are doing ok...every day is a gift.
Saturday, June 18, 2011
Day 14
Day 14...the two week mark! I can't believe two weeks ago today we began this journey!
Our Saturday started like every other Saturday...McDonald's coffee with three creams and two stevias. YUMMY! What a treat!
My husband took my son to get a new bicycle. He went up to the 20" bike. He loves it and has spent a lot of time on it today.
My cousin recently got a job in Manhattan. She is moving from LA, and he apartment wasn't going to be ready until late tonight. So, she took the train to our village today and spent the day with us. I hadn't seen her in a couple of years, and we had a great time! She is very independent and fun to be around. The kids really enjoyed her company as well.
Then, my second cousin who lives in Manhattan came over with her husband and beautiful little girl. This is the first time we were able to meet in person. She is beautiful, absolutely beautiful on the inside and out. It felt comforting to be around family again.
They invited us to a barbecue tomorrow for Father's Day, and we are really looking forward to it.
In other news, my cousin's husband grew up here, and he told us about a Target about 9 or 10 miles away; I was elated. The only Target I knew about was about 10 miles the other way, in a large city, and up in a parking garage. It was so inconvenient and unfamiliar. Now, I have a Target with a regular parking lot again!
What a successful day!
I skyped with my parents tonight. It was a treat! Technology is awesome!
The two week mark! It sure seems like it's been a lot longer than two weeks! It seems like we've been here for two years! I know that sounds crazy, but it does. We are beginning to realize that people are what makes this house feel more like home. People and time make it feel more like home.
Tomorrow is Father's Day, so I am going to try to make the day extra special for my husband, because he is a fabulous father to our two children. I know he would love nothing more than to have a peaceful house with smiling faces, and that's what we're going to give him! :)
Happy Father's Day to all of you wonderful fathers out there.
I took a picture today of a Hydrangea in our yard. When we moved in, it was pale green, then it changed to a bright, lime green. Two days ago, it began changing to the most pretty shade of violet. It just keeps becoming more and more beautiful, and continues to bloom and change a little each day.
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It reminds me of my family. Every day is different. Each obstacle and triumph just pushes us to continue to bloom and become beautiful. Change is good; it can be difficult, but it is good.
Our Saturday started like every other Saturday...McDonald's coffee with three creams and two stevias. YUMMY! What a treat!
My husband took my son to get a new bicycle. He went up to the 20" bike. He loves it and has spent a lot of time on it today.
My cousin recently got a job in Manhattan. She is moving from LA, and he apartment wasn't going to be ready until late tonight. So, she took the train to our village today and spent the day with us. I hadn't seen her in a couple of years, and we had a great time! She is very independent and fun to be around. The kids really enjoyed her company as well.
Then, my second cousin who lives in Manhattan came over with her husband and beautiful little girl. This is the first time we were able to meet in person. She is beautiful, absolutely beautiful on the inside and out. It felt comforting to be around family again.
They invited us to a barbecue tomorrow for Father's Day, and we are really looking forward to it.
In other news, my cousin's husband grew up here, and he told us about a Target about 9 or 10 miles away; I was elated. The only Target I knew about was about 10 miles the other way, in a large city, and up in a parking garage. It was so inconvenient and unfamiliar. Now, I have a Target with a regular parking lot again!
What a successful day!
I skyped with my parents tonight. It was a treat! Technology is awesome!
The two week mark! It sure seems like it's been a lot longer than two weeks! It seems like we've been here for two years! I know that sounds crazy, but it does. We are beginning to realize that people are what makes this house feel more like home. People and time make it feel more like home.
Tomorrow is Father's Day, so I am going to try to make the day extra special for my husband, because he is a fabulous father to our two children. I know he would love nothing more than to have a peaceful house with smiling faces, and that's what we're going to give him! :)
Happy Father's Day to all of you wonderful fathers out there.
I took a picture today of a Hydrangea in our yard. When we moved in, it was pale green, then it changed to a bright, lime green. Two days ago, it began changing to the most pretty shade of violet. It just keeps becoming more and more beautiful, and continues to bloom and change a little each day.
Friday, June 17, 2011
Day 13
Day 13 was more unpacking, shopping for essentials, and finally, fun.
After breakfast, the kids almost had me talked into going to a local shelter to look at dogs. They say they want a dog, but we've been down this road before. It goes like this: The kids want a dog. The kids are tird of the dog after a couple of weeks. The kids forget about the dog. I am the only one that falls in love and cares for the dog. The problem is that I don't have time to take care of a dog. So, in the end, the dog doesn't work out. I really don't want to go through that process again, so...I used my better judgement and decided against even going to the shelter...at least for now.
I got a phone call today from the woman I recently found out that I am distantly related to. Her grandma and my grandpa were siblings. She lives in Manhattan. She is coming over tomorrow with her husband and daughter so that we can finally meet in person. I am really looking forward to it. We all are.
I wish my grandpa were still alive so that I could tell him about this. He would be so happy.
When my husband got home from work tonight, we all decided on chinese for dinner; however, we didn't just want to order off the menu, we wanted a buffet! We found one, and I'll just say that we got our money's worth!
Then, we decided to go to see Mr. Popper's Penguins. It was the CUTEST movie we've all seen together in a long time! Jim C. was completely hilarious! It was our first trip to the movie theater since we've moved here. The theater was similar to what we're used to, but there were some differences. It was much bigger, very crowded, but organized. There were big dispensers used to mix your own bags of candy. Then, I noticed they had a "Customer Service Desk." I have no idea why that woul need that in a movie theater, but obviously they have found that it's necessary. Finally, at the end of the movie, everyone clapped. My daughter and I looked at each other and laughed; we just weren't used to that. It was interesting.
Tomorrow is supposed to be beautiful and sunny. We're hoping to get our errands done early and catch some rays, and then enjoy our visitors!
I must say, honestly, I am still wondering about what the purpose of this move really is. Obviously, my husband was offered a job here, and we decided to pursue it; however, I know in my heart there is more to it than that. Often times, since this is all so new, I question it all. I have really been praying about it. "Lord, what is Your purpose in all of this? Please help us to see the bigger picture."
It's been 13 days since we pulled out of the driveway in Illinois. This is night 9 in our new house. I know I have to be patient. I have to wait. I have to meditate on the verse in Psalms that says, "Be still, and know that I am God."
I tend to be loud by nature. I get it from my dad, and I think he got it from his dad! I also tend to be somewhat impatient. These are traits that I have to set aside. I have to be STILL and know that He is God. He will provide the answers I so desparately seek...if I SEEK Him and listen.
It's all a work in progress...
After breakfast, the kids almost had me talked into going to a local shelter to look at dogs. They say they want a dog, but we've been down this road before. It goes like this: The kids want a dog. The kids are tird of the dog after a couple of weeks. The kids forget about the dog. I am the only one that falls in love and cares for the dog. The problem is that I don't have time to take care of a dog. So, in the end, the dog doesn't work out. I really don't want to go through that process again, so...I used my better judgement and decided against even going to the shelter...at least for now.
I got a phone call today from the woman I recently found out that I am distantly related to. Her grandma and my grandpa were siblings. She lives in Manhattan. She is coming over tomorrow with her husband and daughter so that we can finally meet in person. I am really looking forward to it. We all are.
I wish my grandpa were still alive so that I could tell him about this. He would be so happy.
When my husband got home from work tonight, we all decided on chinese for dinner; however, we didn't just want to order off the menu, we wanted a buffet! We found one, and I'll just say that we got our money's worth!
Then, we decided to go to see Mr. Popper's Penguins. It was the CUTEST movie we've all seen together in a long time! Jim C. was completely hilarious! It was our first trip to the movie theater since we've moved here. The theater was similar to what we're used to, but there were some differences. It was much bigger, very crowded, but organized. There were big dispensers used to mix your own bags of candy. Then, I noticed they had a "Customer Service Desk." I have no idea why that woul need that in a movie theater, but obviously they have found that it's necessary. Finally, at the end of the movie, everyone clapped. My daughter and I looked at each other and laughed; we just weren't used to that. It was interesting.
Tomorrow is supposed to be beautiful and sunny. We're hoping to get our errands done early and catch some rays, and then enjoy our visitors!
I must say, honestly, I am still wondering about what the purpose of this move really is. Obviously, my husband was offered a job here, and we decided to pursue it; however, I know in my heart there is more to it than that. Often times, since this is all so new, I question it all. I have really been praying about it. "Lord, what is Your purpose in all of this? Please help us to see the bigger picture."
It's been 13 days since we pulled out of the driveway in Illinois. This is night 9 in our new house. I know I have to be patient. I have to wait. I have to meditate on the verse in Psalms that says, "Be still, and know that I am God."
I tend to be loud by nature. I get it from my dad, and I think he got it from his dad! I also tend to be somewhat impatient. These are traits that I have to set aside. I have to be STILL and know that He is God. He will provide the answers I so desparately seek...if I SEEK Him and listen.
It's all a work in progress...
Thursday, June 16, 2011
Day 12
Day 12 was mostly uneventful. Maybe that's a good thing.
My daughter and I finished her bedroom and my son's bedroom. I am really pleased with how they both turned out. It took most of the day. To be honest, my son is still in his pajamas...
My son rode his four-wheeler most of the day and found interesting ways to occupy himself.
I think this weekend we will be having a visitor from Manhattan; she is a relative that I just became aware of. Yay technology!
We are still undecided on what to do for Father's Day. Honestly, this is the first time I haven't been with my dad on Father's Day, and it makes me sad. I am choosing to count my blessings, though, and there are lots of them. The blessing that I know I have this Father's Day is simple. I can't be with my dad in person, but I HAVE the best dad a girl could ever ask for. He is there for me anytime I need him. He loves me unconditionally. Believe me, I have tested that love in more ways than I care to elaborate on, and his love remains constant. He's a rock, and he loves the Lord and his family more than anything in this world.
So, I said all that to say that I am ok with not being with my dad physically on Father's Day. I will see him on skype, talk to him on my cell phone, and I'll probably write on his facebook wall. :) We are blessed to have each other.
As for my family here, we are thinking about going to a waterpark on Father's Day, but we haven't made definite plans yet.
As I type, I am watching my honest, strong and sexy husband hang a dining room picture for me.
Life is good.
My daughter and I finished her bedroom and my son's bedroom. I am really pleased with how they both turned out. It took most of the day. To be honest, my son is still in his pajamas...
My son rode his four-wheeler most of the day and found interesting ways to occupy himself.
I think this weekend we will be having a visitor from Manhattan; she is a relative that I just became aware of. Yay technology!
We are still undecided on what to do for Father's Day. Honestly, this is the first time I haven't been with my dad on Father's Day, and it makes me sad. I am choosing to count my blessings, though, and there are lots of them. The blessing that I know I have this Father's Day is simple. I can't be with my dad in person, but I HAVE the best dad a girl could ever ask for. He is there for me anytime I need him. He loves me unconditionally. Believe me, I have tested that love in more ways than I care to elaborate on, and his love remains constant. He's a rock, and he loves the Lord and his family more than anything in this world.
So, I said all that to say that I am ok with not being with my dad physically on Father's Day. I will see him on skype, talk to him on my cell phone, and I'll probably write on his facebook wall. :) We are blessed to have each other.
As for my family here, we are thinking about going to a waterpark on Father's Day, but we haven't made definite plans yet.
As I type, I am watching my honest, strong and sexy husband hang a dining room picture for me.
Life is good.
Wednesday, June 15, 2011
Day 11
I think today was probably the most "emotionally stable" day we've had, collectively as a family. When I say this I mean that not one person cried or had any sort of meltdown whatsoever. It took 11 days, but it happened!
The kids and I ventured out again today and found a Bed, Bath & Beyond. We managed to do some damage in there...if ya know what I mean. We got some good deals.
My husband hung some blinds in the basement. We may be having a guest this weekend, so we wanted to make sure the basement was ready for her.
Cray story...and I mean, CRAZY. This story proves what a small world we really live in, even when it feels HUGE!
I got a message on facebook today from a woman. She was given my link from her cousin because this woman lives in Manhattan. We began facebook messaging and it turns out that we are related! My grandpa and her grandma were siblings! Her dad and my dad are cousins...no joke! She currently lives in Manhattan, which is about 30 miles from me, but her husband's family lives in the same town that we live in, and they visit here about every other weekend! We are hoping to reconnect soon. I was so excited and surprised!
Sometimes, I wake up in the morning and actually forget that I live here. It's like, "Well, I guess we'll be going home soon." Obviously, I know that's not true, but it certainly is a strange feeling.
I am seeing improvements in my kids...at least for now. I know they are beginning to adjust and I am seeing more smiles, hearing more laughter, and noticing their familiar personality traits coming out again. I know they will still have "moments." A pshychologist told me that kids grieve in "bursts." When I say "grieve," I don't mean due to a death, but due to the "death" of what they formerly knew every day...their home, friends, fanily, frequently visited places, schools, church, etc...Those things all still exist, but they are not seen on a daily basis anymore. I have found that what the pshychologist said to be true.
I have a magnet on my refridgerator, and it reads:
peace
it does not mean to be in a place
where there is no noise, trouble
or hard work. it means to be in
the midst of those things and still
be calm in your heart.
The author is unknown.
I have that peace. There is noise, hard work, trouble adjusting, and even some fear, but I am calm in my heart. I know it is the peace of God. It has to be. It is unexplainable otherwise. I am a total "comfort zone" person. Currently, I am completely out of my comfort zone. I haven't even found my comfort zone here yet; even so, I have calmness in my heart, and it feels good.
It is because Jesus is with me always, and I am surrounded by three amazing people every day.
The kids and I ventured out again today and found a Bed, Bath & Beyond. We managed to do some damage in there...if ya know what I mean. We got some good deals.
My husband hung some blinds in the basement. We may be having a guest this weekend, so we wanted to make sure the basement was ready for her.
Cray story...and I mean, CRAZY. This story proves what a small world we really live in, even when it feels HUGE!
I got a message on facebook today from a woman. She was given my link from her cousin because this woman lives in Manhattan. We began facebook messaging and it turns out that we are related! My grandpa and her grandma were siblings! Her dad and my dad are cousins...no joke! She currently lives in Manhattan, which is about 30 miles from me, but her husband's family lives in the same town that we live in, and they visit here about every other weekend! We are hoping to reconnect soon. I was so excited and surprised!
Sometimes, I wake up in the morning and actually forget that I live here. It's like, "Well, I guess we'll be going home soon." Obviously, I know that's not true, but it certainly is a strange feeling.
I am seeing improvements in my kids...at least for now. I know they are beginning to adjust and I am seeing more smiles, hearing more laughter, and noticing their familiar personality traits coming out again. I know they will still have "moments." A pshychologist told me that kids grieve in "bursts." When I say "grieve," I don't mean due to a death, but due to the "death" of what they formerly knew every day...their home, friends, fanily, frequently visited places, schools, church, etc...Those things all still exist, but they are not seen on a daily basis anymore. I have found that what the pshychologist said to be true.
I have a magnet on my refridgerator, and it reads:
peace
it does not mean to be in a place
where there is no noise, trouble
or hard work. it means to be in
the midst of those things and still
be calm in your heart.
The author is unknown.
I have that peace. There is noise, hard work, trouble adjusting, and even some fear, but I am calm in my heart. I know it is the peace of God. It has to be. It is unexplainable otherwise. I am a total "comfort zone" person. Currently, I am completely out of my comfort zone. I haven't even found my comfort zone here yet; even so, I have calmness in my heart, and it feels good.
It is because Jesus is with me always, and I am surrounded by three amazing people every day.
Tuesday, June 14, 2011
Day 10
The kids and I decided to veture out a bit today and do some exploring. We were looking for a picture for a bathroom, and a few other things. We wrote down some addresses, put them into the GPS, and were on our way. Anyone who knows me well at all knows that traveling into the "unknown" makes me very nervous. I don't like driving in big cities; I don't like driving in unfamiliar territory; I don't like a lot of traffic.
We experienced all of the above today.
I guess part of this move is letting go of the things that hold me back and just "going for it." If I don't, I'll just be stuck in the house all the time and will be unable to take my kids to exciting and educational places (or even to McDonalds!)
Anyway, I am determined to conquer some of my fears. I might as well.
Well, we found the perfect picture for the bathroom, and had a fun lunch at a place called, "Friendly's." It sort of reminds me of our Steak n' Shake back home in Illinois.
One box was unpacked today...one single box. Maybe we'll do a few more tomorrow. Our first guest arrives in about 11 days; that gives us a goal to work towards!!
I feel a little like a tiny fish in a huge pond. I guess that's better than feeling like a huge fish in a tiny pond. The more we meet people and start making connections, the smaller the pond will seem.
Until then, I'll keep "swimming!"
We experienced all of the above today.
I guess part of this move is letting go of the things that hold me back and just "going for it." If I don't, I'll just be stuck in the house all the time and will be unable to take my kids to exciting and educational places (or even to McDonalds!)
Anyway, I am determined to conquer some of my fears. I might as well.
Well, we found the perfect picture for the bathroom, and had a fun lunch at a place called, "Friendly's." It sort of reminds me of our Steak n' Shake back home in Illinois.
One box was unpacked today...one single box. Maybe we'll do a few more tomorrow. Our first guest arrives in about 11 days; that gives us a goal to work towards!!
I feel a little like a tiny fish in a huge pond. I guess that's better than feeling like a huge fish in a tiny pond. The more we meet people and start making connections, the smaller the pond will seem.
Until then, I'll keep "swimming!"
Monday, June 13, 2011
Day 9
Our day began by taking a tour of our son's new school. WOW! It was huge, and very nice. I was impressed with their math program. It is very rigorous. Each grade level is responsible for a garden of various vegetable and herbs. They care for it and then eat what they grow. I was extremely happy with it and I am convinced that he will have a successful and fun-filled school year in the fall.
It is ironic...I went from an elementary school tour, to helping my daughter fill out college applications. How is it possible that it is time for my "little girl" to be doing this? I am proud of her in so many ways. She continues to amaze me. She is smart, brave, and "real." My daughter is genuine and she is herself no matter who she is around. She doesn"t change for anyone.
We continued to unpack today. Tonight was the first night we cooked and ate at home. I love the oven. Everyone was pleased with my meal, so that was nice. I think we were all just starving!
Emotionally, they day was mostly "even." We were basically in "work" mode today; however, there were some high and low points.
My daughter and I had MANY laughs while working on collegs aps. My son and I had fun shooting hoops and playing outside. We all "grieve" home in our own way. Whether it's with tears, acting out, quiet, etc...I see it in all of us at different times throughout the day.
We ended up with a visit to Cold Stone Creamery and a movie at home. It was nice.
I'm looking forward to the day when things are completely "normal." I know that will happen once we have met people, are completely unpacked, and have established a routine again.
Until that day, we'll keep pressing on. We'll keep working hard. Most of all, we'll keep loving each other. We will love each other through these difficult times. I already feel us becoming even a tighter unit. I didn't think that was possible, but I guess it was.
I am blessed to live with the three most amazing people on the planet.
It is ironic...I went from an elementary school tour, to helping my daughter fill out college applications. How is it possible that it is time for my "little girl" to be doing this? I am proud of her in so many ways. She continues to amaze me. She is smart, brave, and "real." My daughter is genuine and she is herself no matter who she is around. She doesn"t change for anyone.
We continued to unpack today. Tonight was the first night we cooked and ate at home. I love the oven. Everyone was pleased with my meal, so that was nice. I think we were all just starving!
Emotionally, they day was mostly "even." We were basically in "work" mode today; however, there were some high and low points.
My daughter and I had MANY laughs while working on collegs aps. My son and I had fun shooting hoops and playing outside. We all "grieve" home in our own way. Whether it's with tears, acting out, quiet, etc...I see it in all of us at different times throughout the day.
We ended up with a visit to Cold Stone Creamery and a movie at home. It was nice.
I'm looking forward to the day when things are completely "normal." I know that will happen once we have met people, are completely unpacked, and have established a routine again.
Until that day, we'll keep pressing on. We'll keep working hard. Most of all, we'll keep loving each other. We will love each other through these difficult times. I already feel us becoming even a tighter unit. I didn't think that was possible, but I guess it was.
I am blessed to live with the three most amazing people on the planet.
Sunday, June 12, 2011
Day 9
Day 9...It started off with visiting a new church. The people there could not be more friendly. It was nice to receive so many hugs and handshakes. We felt extremely welcome; it was nice. The only problem is that the church was extremely small, which we didn't know until we got there. There were no teenagers and only five kids. Our church in Illinois was very large and my kids grew and learned so much in their youth programs. Although the people were kind and welcoming, we have to have a church with a thriving youth ministry.
We will try another church next week...not sure which one yet.
We tried another restaurant today. We ate breakfast there and loved it. I look forward to taking my family and friends there when they visit.
Tomorrow we are taking a tour of our son's new school. Then, my son and I bought poster board and we are making a calendar that streches through September. We are marking down all of the times that we have visitors. Believe it or not, we have a pretty steady flow from June 25 all the way through September. Praise the LORD! I couldn't be happier. I am happy when I have a house full!
When we pulled into the driveway after church, a large deer was standing right in the middle of our lane leading to our driveway. I love wildlife; I love enjoying God's creation. It stood there, as I was only about ten feet away, and let me take lots of pictures of it. It was beautiful.
I still struggle with not knowing anyone. I LOVE people. I miss going into Target, or a restaurant, or the mall, and running into familiar faces. That doesn't happen here. I look forward to the day that I go somewhere around town and I actually recognize someone and we can have a conversation.
Today, I was sitting outside talking on the phone to one of my sisters. The cutest little cat came walking by. I was sweetly saying, "Here, kitty kitty kitty..." I was pleading for this cat to come over to me...is this what is has come to? I beg a cat to come over and see me??? HAHA
The cat kept going!
My son is begging for a dog. We were in a larger city today and he saw a sign with the word "dog" in it. He said, "Please let's go in there and buy a dog!" He didn't realize that it was a spa for dogs. I was thinking, "a spa for dogs?" The day I take my dog to a spa is the day pigs fly! He has been asking every single day for a dog. He doesn't really even care for dogs. I think he is just looking for a companion.
The bottom line is that we haven't even been in this house for a week. The kids in our town will be in school for one more week, and then they'll be on summer break. At that point, we will begin meeting more people and seeing more kids out. His summer camp starts on July 5 and continues every day during the week until August 12...he'll meet plenty of kids there! I, on the other hand, am a major dog lover, so I am extremely tempted to go to the NYC Humane Society and purchase a dog. We'll see..
Our first guest from IL will be arriving on June 25. We have another guest from KY arriving on June 30. I'm excited! It gives us a goal; we have to have the house ready by then!!
Every time I get down and discourage, I hear that still, small voice saying, "Trust Me." The Lord does not lead us to places and then leave us. He is with us always. He never, not even for one single second, takes His eyes off of us.
He sees me when I'm laughing with my daughter, or playing with my son, or talking to my husband. He knows my thoughts, my fears, my hopes and my desires. He LOVES me. It really doesn't get any better than that. He adores me and is there for me. He WILL NOT let me fall. If I trust and rely on Him, I can't go wrong. With Him, my family is never alone. He will NOT leave us or forsake us.
He know when I lie down, and when I rise, when I come and when I go; he knows when I'm laughing and when my heart aches. I am His child. He hold my family in the palm of His hand.
He knew we would be making this move to NY. He knows who our friends will be; He knows our future church; He knew it all before we did...He can handle this.
We will try another church next week...not sure which one yet.
We tried another restaurant today. We ate breakfast there and loved it. I look forward to taking my family and friends there when they visit.
Tomorrow we are taking a tour of our son's new school. Then, my son and I bought poster board and we are making a calendar that streches through September. We are marking down all of the times that we have visitors. Believe it or not, we have a pretty steady flow from June 25 all the way through September. Praise the LORD! I couldn't be happier. I am happy when I have a house full!
I still struggle with not knowing anyone. I LOVE people. I miss going into Target, or a restaurant, or the mall, and running into familiar faces. That doesn't happen here. I look forward to the day that I go somewhere around town and I actually recognize someone and we can have a conversation.
Today, I was sitting outside talking on the phone to one of my sisters. The cutest little cat came walking by. I was sweetly saying, "Here, kitty kitty kitty..." I was pleading for this cat to come over to me...is this what is has come to? I beg a cat to come over and see me??? HAHA
The cat kept going!
My son is begging for a dog. We were in a larger city today and he saw a sign with the word "dog" in it. He said, "Please let's go in there and buy a dog!" He didn't realize that it was a spa for dogs. I was thinking, "a spa for dogs?" The day I take my dog to a spa is the day pigs fly! He has been asking every single day for a dog. He doesn't really even care for dogs. I think he is just looking for a companion.
The bottom line is that we haven't even been in this house for a week. The kids in our town will be in school for one more week, and then they'll be on summer break. At that point, we will begin meeting more people and seeing more kids out. His summer camp starts on July 5 and continues every day during the week until August 12...he'll meet plenty of kids there! I, on the other hand, am a major dog lover, so I am extremely tempted to go to the NYC Humane Society and purchase a dog. We'll see..
Our first guest from IL will be arriving on June 25. We have another guest from KY arriving on June 30. I'm excited! It gives us a goal; we have to have the house ready by then!!
Every time I get down and discourage, I hear that still, small voice saying, "Trust Me." The Lord does not lead us to places and then leave us. He is with us always. He never, not even for one single second, takes His eyes off of us.
He sees me when I'm laughing with my daughter, or playing with my son, or talking to my husband. He knows my thoughts, my fears, my hopes and my desires. He LOVES me. It really doesn't get any better than that. He adores me and is there for me. He WILL NOT let me fall. If I trust and rely on Him, I can't go wrong. With Him, my family is never alone. He will NOT leave us or forsake us.
He know when I lie down, and when I rise, when I come and when I go; he knows when I'm laughing and when my heart aches. I am His child. He hold my family in the palm of His hand.
He knew we would be making this move to NY. He knows who our friends will be; He knows our future church; He knew it all before we did...He can handle this.
Saturday, June 11, 2011
OK...Last post of Day 8
We had our movie and cookies with vanilla ice cream. It was a pretty good time. Then, my son asked if he could skype his cousin. It was getting near bedtime, but I called my sister and her son was still up, so my son ran up to his room, turned on his computer, and we connected to skype.
The boys are so sweet, and SO excited to see each other. They are used to seeing each other mostly every day, even during the week on school days. Honestly, they have been reised more like brothers than cousins. Their bond is incredibly strong. They play hard, they fight hard...they are best friends.
The move has been very hard on both of them; they are both experiencing the same emotions. They miss each other terribly, and it, at times, can be excruciating.
Anyway, the boys aked if they could have "boy time," and we would go out of the room. My sister and I agreed. I wondered what they were up to.
I was standing in the hallway, right outside my sons door listening. They discussed what they wanted to play. They decided on "restaurant." They each went and got their bins of fake food. They were literally playing, via skype, the exact same way they play it when they're together! It was a beautiful thing. I heard my son say, "Isn't this fun?" He said it so full of enthusiasm. My nephew replied, "YES!"
That was it...I was in tears. I stood in the hallway, as these precious boys "played" for almost an hour. They were laughing and talking and playing. I kept crying...the tears just kept coming.
I can't even explain my emotions. I was crying, first, because I love to hear these boys laugh together again. It is music to my ears. Second, I was crying because they have to "play" together on the computer instead of in person. Usually, they see each other and they run off and play and we hardly see them again. Tonight, they sat in their computer chairs, looking at each other through the screen...it broke my heart. Even so, I was so thankful for things like Skype. They can actually see each other, play some games, and talk and laugh together. It is so much more personal than a simple phone call. I also feel blessed because they will both sit and skype, for that long, and they enjoy it. Some kids would not be at all interested in this type of communication. They woud become bored with it and not enjoy this sort of "play" time. My sister and I were blessed with little boys who love each other so much that they really don't care how they get to "play." Whether it's in person, on the phone, or through a computer screen...it doesn't matter. Their love reaches beyond all boundaries.
The boys are so sweet, and SO excited to see each other. They are used to seeing each other mostly every day, even during the week on school days. Honestly, they have been reised more like brothers than cousins. Their bond is incredibly strong. They play hard, they fight hard...they are best friends.
The move has been very hard on both of them; they are both experiencing the same emotions. They miss each other terribly, and it, at times, can be excruciating.
Anyway, the boys aked if they could have "boy time," and we would go out of the room. My sister and I agreed. I wondered what they were up to.
I was standing in the hallway, right outside my sons door listening. They discussed what they wanted to play. They decided on "restaurant." They each went and got their bins of fake food. They were literally playing, via skype, the exact same way they play it when they're together! It was a beautiful thing. I heard my son say, "Isn't this fun?" He said it so full of enthusiasm. My nephew replied, "YES!"
That was it...I was in tears. I stood in the hallway, as these precious boys "played" for almost an hour. They were laughing and talking and playing. I kept crying...the tears just kept coming.
I can't even explain my emotions. I was crying, first, because I love to hear these boys laugh together again. It is music to my ears. Second, I was crying because they have to "play" together on the computer instead of in person. Usually, they see each other and they run off and play and we hardly see them again. Tonight, they sat in their computer chairs, looking at each other through the screen...it broke my heart. Even so, I was so thankful for things like Skype. They can actually see each other, play some games, and talk and laugh together. It is so much more personal than a simple phone call. I also feel blessed because they will both sit and skype, for that long, and they enjoy it. Some kids would not be at all interested in this type of communication. They woud become bored with it and not enjoy this sort of "play" time. My sister and I were blessed with little boys who love each other so much that they really don't care how they get to "play." Whether it's in person, on the phone, or through a computer screen...it doesn't matter. Their love reaches beyond all boundaries.
Day 8 was productive!
We have worked and worked today! Tonight, we are taking a break!
We may have 10% or so of our boxes left to unpack. I am happy with that.
We got our son signed up for the summer reading program and acquired a library card! :)
We found a church...well, we found the church we will be attending tomorrow! Brock drove by and it looked small, which makes me nervous (harder to blend in). I am hoping and praying for the best! We won't know what we think unless we try it.
We took about 6 vanloads of boxes down to recycling. It's nice to have so many less boxes in this house!
The kids are coming down right now to bake cookies. We will be ordering takout from somewhere...not sure where yet. We got a movie for tonight, also. It all sounds heavenly.
Right before I sat down, I looked out my dining room window, and a huge buck was walking by. I was on the phone with one of my sisters and it took me by surprise. It was huge, and it just shocked me! I was scrambling all over to find my camera, and, of course, it was nowhere to be found!
Anyway, it was just a pleasure to see!
Before I close for the night, I wanted to give a big shout out to my buddy back home: Matt G! ;)
Day 8...the first night we will sit down as a family to have a movie night in our new home...
We may have 10% or so of our boxes left to unpack. I am happy with that.
We got our son signed up for the summer reading program and acquired a library card! :)
We found a church...well, we found the church we will be attending tomorrow! Brock drove by and it looked small, which makes me nervous (harder to blend in). I am hoping and praying for the best! We won't know what we think unless we try it.
We took about 6 vanloads of boxes down to recycling. It's nice to have so many less boxes in this house!
The kids are coming down right now to bake cookies. We will be ordering takout from somewhere...not sure where yet. We got a movie for tonight, also. It all sounds heavenly.
Right before I sat down, I looked out my dining room window, and a huge buck was walking by. I was on the phone with one of my sisters and it took me by surprise. It was huge, and it just shocked me! I was scrambling all over to find my camera, and, of course, it was nowhere to be found!
Anyway, it was just a pleasure to see!
Before I close for the night, I wanted to give a big shout out to my buddy back home: Matt G! ;)
Day 8...the first night we will sit down as a family to have a movie night in our new home...
Day 8
It seems the more boxes we get unpacked and out of this house, the more calm I feel.
It is cloudy and drizzly here today, so it is the perfect day to get the rest of the boxes unpacked. We've all four been working hard this morning to get it all done. We are hoping to relax tonight with a movie!
My sis, her husband, their two boys and my mom and visiting in July. I can't wait! My cousin, who happens to be my daughter's best friend, will be here at the end of the month for her birthday! Then, my sister called this morning, and she is coming again at the very end of August for Labor day with one of her sons and also my best friend from Illinois! There is a lot to look forward to!!
I love the wildlife I see all around here. Today my husband and I sit and watched a light gray squirrel and a coal black squirrel play together all throughout the yard. Then, down the road, a momma deer was crossing with her tiny baby...precious!
My main focus today is my daughter's bedroom...it's going to be quite a chore!
Have a wonderful Saturday!!
It is cloudy and drizzly here today, so it is the perfect day to get the rest of the boxes unpacked. We've all four been working hard this morning to get it all done. We are hoping to relax tonight with a movie!
My sis, her husband, their two boys and my mom and visiting in July. I can't wait! My cousin, who happens to be my daughter's best friend, will be here at the end of the month for her birthday! Then, my sister called this morning, and she is coming again at the very end of August for Labor day with one of her sons and also my best friend from Illinois! There is a lot to look forward to!!
I love the wildlife I see all around here. Today my husband and I sit and watched a light gray squirrel and a coal black squirrel play together all throughout the yard. Then, down the road, a momma deer was crossing with her tiny baby...precious!
My main focus today is my daughter's bedroom...it's going to be quite a chore!
Have a wonderful Saturday!!
Friday, June 10, 2011
End of Day 7
We finally have our phones, cable, and internet hooked up...oh, how I've missed them!!
I went for a run for the first time today in my new surroundings. It was a nice evening for it. As I was running around the pond, I ran right past two geese with their babies. I took a picture with my phone. I love nature and that was quite a treat.
We didn't get a lot of unpacking done today, but, there's nothing we can do about that now. I have realized today that my awesome daughter is one of the most courageous people I know. She really is extraordinary.
FINALLY, we were able to skype tonight. We saw my sister, her husband and son, and my mom...over the computer screen, of course. I must say...it was very emotional. We couldn't wait to see them! We waited for it all day long! It was the first thing my son asked for this morning when he woke up because he knew the cableman was coming!
I enjoyed every second of our skype session; however, a piece of my heart was saddened by it. The boys were laughing and goofing off and acting silly together, but they would have much rather ran off and played. They were both sad when it was time to get off of the computer. Talk about heartbreaking! They will all be here to visit us in five short weeks. I don't thing I've ever been so excited about anything in my entire life. To see my son and his cousin, his best friend, reunite, will be a beautiful thing.
Tomorrow we are going to a local farmer's market, then to the library to sign our son up for the summer reading program. Then, it is more unpacking...it has to get done...it's brutal.
Family is such a treasure. I encourage any of you who are not close to your family....your parents, children, siblings, nieces and nephews, to make getting to know them a priority. Love them. Cherish them. Don't ever let simple quarrels, disagreements, etc...get in the way of relationships. Forgive.
I thank God every day for choosing my family for me. What a blessing! There is no better gift.
Until tomorrow...
I went for a run for the first time today in my new surroundings. It was a nice evening for it. As I was running around the pond, I ran right past two geese with their babies. I took a picture with my phone. I love nature and that was quite a treat.
We didn't get a lot of unpacking done today, but, there's nothing we can do about that now. I have realized today that my awesome daughter is one of the most courageous people I know. She really is extraordinary.
FINALLY, we were able to skype tonight. We saw my sister, her husband and son, and my mom...over the computer screen, of course. I must say...it was very emotional. We couldn't wait to see them! We waited for it all day long! It was the first thing my son asked for this morning when he woke up because he knew the cableman was coming!
I enjoyed every second of our skype session; however, a piece of my heart was saddened by it. The boys were laughing and goofing off and acting silly together, but they would have much rather ran off and played. They were both sad when it was time to get off of the computer. Talk about heartbreaking! They will all be here to visit us in five short weeks. I don't thing I've ever been so excited about anything in my entire life. To see my son and his cousin, his best friend, reunite, will be a beautiful thing.
Tomorrow we are going to a local farmer's market, then to the library to sign our son up for the summer reading program. Then, it is more unpacking...it has to get done...it's brutal.
Family is such a treasure. I encourage any of you who are not close to your family....your parents, children, siblings, nieces and nephews, to make getting to know them a priority. Love them. Cherish them. Don't ever let simple quarrels, disagreements, etc...get in the way of relationships. Forgive.
I thank God every day for choosing my family for me. What a blessing! There is no better gift.
Day 7--The One Week Mark
I have to start with the end of day 6.
Our vehicles finally arrived! We can drive!
Last nit for dinner, we went to this neighborhood pizzaria. WOW! We have never eaten piaaz this delicious! Seriously, we were in awe of its greatness! I had the Buffalo Chicken Pizza with ranch dressing...As I was leaving, I was smiling from ear to ear and thanking the owner and he handed me a menu and tole me thay delivered! Oh, happy day!
Then it was on to the grocery store. I really liked the store. I was shocked to see that their organic products, including produce, meats, milk and eggs, and all cereal and food items were less expensive than they were in Illinois! So, we finally have food in our kitchen!
We got home and when it was time for my son to go to bed, and he called his grandma for a bedtime story. He loves, "Where the Sidewalk Ends." She has the book and she got him his own book, and so they could each turn to a page and read the stories together. It was the cutest thing I've ever seen. Priceless...
The main level of the house is almost done. This is mostly thanks to my daughter. She has worked incredibly hard. I am so thankful for her effort and her companionship. She is amazing.
Today, we plan on swimming for a bit and then maybe walking down to the park.
Next up: the bedrooms. It would be nice to walk into them without dodging boxes!
It's a beautiful, sunny day here in NY!
Our vehicles finally arrived! We can drive!
Last nit for dinner, we went to this neighborhood pizzaria. WOW! We have never eaten piaaz this delicious! Seriously, we were in awe of its greatness! I had the Buffalo Chicken Pizza with ranch dressing...As I was leaving, I was smiling from ear to ear and thanking the owner and he handed me a menu and tole me thay delivered! Oh, happy day!
Then it was on to the grocery store. I really liked the store. I was shocked to see that their organic products, including produce, meats, milk and eggs, and all cereal and food items were less expensive than they were in Illinois! So, we finally have food in our kitchen!
We got home and when it was time for my son to go to bed, and he called his grandma for a bedtime story. He loves, "Where the Sidewalk Ends." She has the book and she got him his own book, and so they could each turn to a page and read the stories together. It was the cutest thing I've ever seen. Priceless...
The main level of the house is almost done. This is mostly thanks to my daughter. She has worked incredibly hard. I am so thankful for her effort and her companionship. She is amazing.
Today, we plan on swimming for a bit and then maybe walking down to the park.
Next up: the bedrooms. It would be nice to walk into them without dodging boxes!
It's a beautiful, sunny day here in NY!
Thursday, June 9, 2011
Day 7
Day 7 sure has been better than day 6! I know I had a lot of peeps praying for me, and prayer changes things.
My husband actually got into the doctor today and got an antibiotic; hopefully, it kicks in FAST!
The kids and I took a "mental health day" today. We got up, and instead of working feverishly unpacking and organizing, we just went straight out to the pool. My son was jumping in and we were all in and having a good time. The unpacking would have to wait awhile.
While we were out there, my mother-in-law called. She talked to my son and he is going to call her tonight before bed and she is going to read him some of his favorite stories. He is really looking forward to that.
My mom has been working on making sure everything is AOK with the house we are still trying to sell in Illinois. What a load that takes off!!
Resr and relaxation is about over now, and we are ready to get busy again.
Good times...
My husband actually got into the doctor today and got an antibiotic; hopefully, it kicks in FAST!
The kids and I took a "mental health day" today. We got up, and instead of working feverishly unpacking and organizing, we just went straight out to the pool. My son was jumping in and we were all in and having a good time. The unpacking would have to wait awhile.
While we were out there, my mother-in-law called. She talked to my son and he is going to call her tonight before bed and she is going to read him some of his favorite stories. He is really looking forward to that.
My mom has been working on making sure everything is AOK with the house we are still trying to sell in Illinois. What a load that takes off!!
Resr and relaxation is about over now, and we are ready to get busy again.
Wednesday, June 8, 2011
Day 6--I need a redo
I don't know what happened...the day was going fine, and then downhill I began to roll. No matter how hard I tried to stop, I just kept rolling...faster and faster. I began to get very down and extremely overwhelmed. Seriously, I just wanted to "go home."
We decided to go to eat Mexican tonight. I was watching all these groups of people coming in together. They were laughing and talking and having a great time. I started to feel sick. The four of us were just sitting there, and we were watching everyone around us...it was strange. My mom called during dinner, and the second I heard her voice, I started crying. Yes, right in the restaurant...the tears started flowing.
I could not get "home" off my mind today.
As we were driving back, a friend I have known since I was five-years-old sent me a text asking how New York was treating me. I told her that I just wanted to go home. She asked if she could call and pray with me. She did, and it was so powerful. I immediately felt some relief.
I moved from Kentcky to Illinois exactly 25 years ago. My friend that prayed with me tonight was my best friend there. When I moved we were absolutely devastated and wondered how we would even survive! Now, 25 years later, she is helping me cope with another move. Sharon, you are a treasure.
If I could be granted anything right now, it would be that my kids would meet other kids and connect with them. It physically hurts me to watch my son play alone, all day long. He is bored, acting out, and seems almost angry. Never, not even one time in his entire life, has he everbeen descrbed that way. He doesn't want to talk about it. My heart is breaking for him...it is literally breaking.
I just feel completely helpless in this situation...especially with my son, because he just does not understand this, and I am watching him struggle, which may be the most difficult thing I've ever had to do.
I am asking for prayers for my children. Please pray that the Lord will bring other people into their lives that are good influences and will be great friends to my kids.
How long will it take for them to adjust? By adjusting, does one just accept it and lose a part of themselves, or does acceptance bring closure? Do we want closure? I just don't know. I am so exhausted and confused right now.
Good night...
We decided to go to eat Mexican tonight. I was watching all these groups of people coming in together. They were laughing and talking and having a great time. I started to feel sick. The four of us were just sitting there, and we were watching everyone around us...it was strange. My mom called during dinner, and the second I heard her voice, I started crying. Yes, right in the restaurant...the tears started flowing.
I could not get "home" off my mind today.
As we were driving back, a friend I have known since I was five-years-old sent me a text asking how New York was treating me. I told her that I just wanted to go home. She asked if she could call and pray with me. She did, and it was so powerful. I immediately felt some relief.
I moved from Kentcky to Illinois exactly 25 years ago. My friend that prayed with me tonight was my best friend there. When I moved we were absolutely devastated and wondered how we would even survive! Now, 25 years later, she is helping me cope with another move. Sharon, you are a treasure.
If I could be granted anything right now, it would be that my kids would meet other kids and connect with them. It physically hurts me to watch my son play alone, all day long. He is bored, acting out, and seems almost angry. Never, not even one time in his entire life, has he everbeen descrbed that way. He doesn't want to talk about it. My heart is breaking for him...it is literally breaking.
I just feel completely helpless in this situation...especially with my son, because he just does not understand this, and I am watching him struggle, which may be the most difficult thing I've ever had to do.
I am asking for prayers for my children. Please pray that the Lord will bring other people into their lives that are good influences and will be great friends to my kids.
How long will it take for them to adjust? By adjusting, does one just accept it and lose a part of themselves, or does acceptance bring closure? Do we want closure? I just don't know. I am so exhausted and confused right now.
Good night...
Day 6...what a start!
My husband went into work early this morning. He needed to play "catch up," for awhile. Our neighbor told us of a walk in clinic in our town, so he will be heading there after work. i am pretty sure he needs an antibiotic to clear up his chest.
I received a wonderful wake up call from my Aunt Kathy this morning. What a pleasant surprise and a great way to start off my day! She was such an encouragement and I had a wonderful time talking and laughing with her.
Then, I had a brilliant idea...I would go make myself a fabulous cup of coffee before the kids got up. I went downstairs, and found myself standing between rows of boxes that were taller than me! I stRted ripping tape off, determined to find my keurig! Finally, I opened a box and there it was...I was thrilled! I filled it with water, and put some coffee in, only to realize that I had no coffee mugs. Which box were they in? All I wanted to do was fix a me a cup and sit outside alone for a few minute.
I kept digging through boxes, and finally found a coffee cup! YES!! I made my cup of coffee, put some milk in it and then I needed to stir it. Where was my silverware? By now, the kitchen is literally torn apart and covered with paper and huge boxes that were ripped open. Then, I see my solverware. I take out a spoon, stir my coffee, smile before i take a sip, and it was cold.
So, at least I finally had everything I needed. just as I began to brew my next, hot cup, the kids came downstairs...the coffee was still delicious!
We are working hard to unpack...especially the kids. They are actually down there organizing now, and I am in my room blogging. My son just yelled, "Mom, are you gonna help us?" hahaha!!
I need to go help...
I received a wonderful wake up call from my Aunt Kathy this morning. What a pleasant surprise and a great way to start off my day! She was such an encouragement and I had a wonderful time talking and laughing with her.
Then, I had a brilliant idea...I would go make myself a fabulous cup of coffee before the kids got up. I went downstairs, and found myself standing between rows of boxes that were taller than me! I stRted ripping tape off, determined to find my keurig! Finally, I opened a box and there it was...I was thrilled! I filled it with water, and put some coffee in, only to realize that I had no coffee mugs. Which box were they in? All I wanted to do was fix a me a cup and sit outside alone for a few minute.
I kept digging through boxes, and finally found a coffee cup! YES!! I made my cup of coffee, put some milk in it and then I needed to stir it. Where was my silverware? By now, the kitchen is literally torn apart and covered with paper and huge boxes that were ripped open. Then, I see my solverware. I take out a spoon, stir my coffee, smile before i take a sip, and it was cold.
So, at least I finally had everything I needed. just as I began to brew my next, hot cup, the kids came downstairs...the coffee was still delicious!
We are working hard to unpack...especially the kids. They are actually down there organizing now, and I am in my room blogging. My son just yelled, "Mom, are you gonna help us?" hahaha!!
I need to go help...
Tuesday, June 7, 2011
Day 5--Are we done YET????
Total whirlwind...that is a great way to describe day 5!
To start, the lane we live on is so narrow that the huge moving truck could not fit down it! So, they had to park on the main street, and tranfer everything, one load at a time, down the lane. I felt so sorry for the movers. It was so hot and they had quite a load! Eventually, they had everything inside and their job was done.
My husband, kids and I got super busy. We were unpacking things and searching for things. Most of all, we were elated to see our things again. It was like a big piece of comfort was delivered to us today. We set the new living room up exactly like our old one.
Several wonderful things happened today:
I talked to so many familiar and wonderful people from home on the phone today. I actually spent quite a bit of time chatting away as I unpacked our things.
A delivery man knocked on the door and asked for me. I RAN to the door, because I saw he was holding a gorgeous bouquet of flowers. I couldn't open the card fast enough! They were from my good friend, Carol, from Illinois. They came at a perfect time. God is so good. I was hot and tired and missing special people from home, and here comes a flower delivery. I felt missed and loved and thought about, and it was a wonderful feeling!
My son's behavior changed today too...for the better. It was as if he saw some of his favorite things being unloaded and suddenly realized, "Oh, we may have moved, but I still get to keep things that are special to me!" He really calmed down and began to have fun and play with his toys and organize his room. I felt like I got my boy back today. Praise the Lord!
My hasband went to sign our son up for day camp. It starts in July and most of the kids attend this camp every day in the mornings. They do the most amazing things all summer. Anyway, my husband was signing him up and the man organizing the camp was asking about our move, etc...My husband told him that our daughhter was in high school and we are trying to come up with ways for her to meet other teenagers. The man said, "Is she looking for a job?" My husband said, "Yes! She was planning on going around town this Friday to put in some applications." THEN...the man told my husband to bring her in and they would interview her for a job as "camp counselor." In the middle of the chaos, my husband drove her to the interview, and she got the job!! She will be with the third and fourth grade girls and she is so excited! I had just written in a prior post that we have really been praying that the Lord would give us wisdom, discernment, and that He would lead and guide our every step and decision. Today was not a coincidence! The Lord was leading and guiding her into the job that will be just right for her! I am in awe of Him.
I went to the mailbox and had a letter from my sister. She wrote, individually to each person in my family. It was so full of emotion and love, and we cried while reading it. They were happy tears...I guess there were some sad tears in there too, because we love and miss her so much, but they were mostly tears coming down as we were smiling and reading her love letter. It meant the world...
It is getting late now and we are all running on empty. My husband is going in the morning to try to find a doctor. He started feeling "not so well" before we left Illinois, but now it has turned to total congestion and it is in his chest. Prayers for him are greatly
appreciated. I feel so sorry for him because he is working so hard to get us settled, etc...but his body is fightinh him. Thank you, Jesus, for his total healing!
We have also made another decision today: We are in no hurry unpacking these boxes. There are too many of them and too few of us! We will work on it for a few hours each day, and save the rest for the next day. It'll all be unpacked eventually!
To start, the lane we live on is so narrow that the huge moving truck could not fit down it! So, they had to park on the main street, and tranfer everything, one load at a time, down the lane. I felt so sorry for the movers. It was so hot and they had quite a load! Eventually, they had everything inside and their job was done.
My husband, kids and I got super busy. We were unpacking things and searching for things. Most of all, we were elated to see our things again. It was like a big piece of comfort was delivered to us today. We set the new living room up exactly like our old one.
Several wonderful things happened today:
I talked to so many familiar and wonderful people from home on the phone today. I actually spent quite a bit of time chatting away as I unpacked our things.
A delivery man knocked on the door and asked for me. I RAN to the door, because I saw he was holding a gorgeous bouquet of flowers. I couldn't open the card fast enough! They were from my good friend, Carol, from Illinois. They came at a perfect time. God is so good. I was hot and tired and missing special people from home, and here comes a flower delivery. I felt missed and loved and thought about, and it was a wonderful feeling!
My son's behavior changed today too...for the better. It was as if he saw some of his favorite things being unloaded and suddenly realized, "Oh, we may have moved, but I still get to keep things that are special to me!" He really calmed down and began to have fun and play with his toys and organize his room. I felt like I got my boy back today. Praise the Lord!
My hasband went to sign our son up for day camp. It starts in July and most of the kids attend this camp every day in the mornings. They do the most amazing things all summer. Anyway, my husband was signing him up and the man organizing the camp was asking about our move, etc...My husband told him that our daughhter was in high school and we are trying to come up with ways for her to meet other teenagers. The man said, "Is she looking for a job?" My husband said, "Yes! She was planning on going around town this Friday to put in some applications." THEN...the man told my husband to bring her in and they would interview her for a job as "camp counselor." In the middle of the chaos, my husband drove her to the interview, and she got the job!! She will be with the third and fourth grade girls and she is so excited! I had just written in a prior post that we have really been praying that the Lord would give us wisdom, discernment, and that He would lead and guide our every step and decision. Today was not a coincidence! The Lord was leading and guiding her into the job that will be just right for her! I am in awe of Him.
I went to the mailbox and had a letter from my sister. She wrote, individually to each person in my family. It was so full of emotion and love, and we cried while reading it. They were happy tears...I guess there were some sad tears in there too, because we love and miss her so much, but they were mostly tears coming down as we were smiling and reading her love letter. It meant the world...
It is getting late now and we are all running on empty. My husband is going in the morning to try to find a doctor. He started feeling "not so well" before we left Illinois, but now it has turned to total congestion and it is in his chest. Prayers for him are greatly
appreciated. I feel so sorry for him because he is working so hard to get us settled, etc...but his body is fightinh him. Thank you, Jesus, for his total healing!
We have also made another decision today: We are in no hurry unpacking these boxes. There are too many of them and too few of us! We will work on it for a few hours each day, and save the rest for the next day. It'll all be unpacked eventually!
Monday, June 6, 2011
Day 4
I think today lasted forever! We have been at the new house all day cleaning. We mopped every floor, cleaned the baseboards, wiped counters, etc...
We got a tiny bit of pool time in.
I took time, today, to really take in and reflect on the beauty all around me. The flowers are blooming beautifully, the grass is green, wildlife was out and about. My daughter and I spent all day cleaning together, and she would look at me and say something and smile, and her big sparkling blue eyes lit up the entire room. my sons laughter and white crazy hair is magnificient. My husband is strong and a calming force. That is a beautiful thing.
I talked to my family today, and I count down the days until they visit.
Yes, it's only day 4 and I have already started the countdown.
When I arrived at the house this morning, there was already a letter there addressed to me! I got so excited! It was a letter from my very best friend. It was full of encouragement, love, and advice. She also reassured me of her visit in only 14.5 short weeks! She knows I am counting down!!
The vanline called and they will be delivering all of our things tomorrow...earlier than expected!! Awesome!!!!
My husband, kids and I will have approximately 150 boxes to unpack. It overwhelms me just thinking about it!!
I am looking forward to sleeping in my own bed.
I am really looking forward to finding a good church. That is not an easy task, and we loved our church back home. I can't wait to find a cd player in the boxes so that I can play my christiam music. It encourages me so much and really lifts my spirits.
My son hasn't exactly been acting like himself. He is not listening and is acting out. It is almost like he is having a hard time resting...it is heartbreaking because I know this is his way of "grieving" the way things were.
Everything he has been used to for six years, with the exception of his parents and sister, has completely changed. How can a kid his age possibly understand what is going on? I don't think he does, and that is why he is acting out. My mom thinks he will probably get better each day and I really pray she is right. I love him so much and to see him struggling just physically hurts me.
Well, tomorrow is delivery day...I can't wait to sit in my favorite chair again.
A friend on facebook told me today to "rise to the challenge."
That was excellent advice. Every time I feel like just crying and going back to Illinois, I have to rise to this challenge. My dad recently told me that I was a soldier and that I was strong. He was right; hevalways is.
So, I will continue to "soldier" through each day. Fear and tears are perfectly ok, but I won't allow them to take over.
Jesus loves us so much, and I know He has a plan. We are praying that he leads and guides every step we take and that He fills us with His wisdom and discernment. With that, there is no way we can fail.
No matter what...
We got a tiny bit of pool time in.
I took time, today, to really take in and reflect on the beauty all around me. The flowers are blooming beautifully, the grass is green, wildlife was out and about. My daughter and I spent all day cleaning together, and she would look at me and say something and smile, and her big sparkling blue eyes lit up the entire room. my sons laughter and white crazy hair is magnificient. My husband is strong and a calming force. That is a beautiful thing.
I talked to my family today, and I count down the days until they visit.
Yes, it's only day 4 and I have already started the countdown.
When I arrived at the house this morning, there was already a letter there addressed to me! I got so excited! It was a letter from my very best friend. It was full of encouragement, love, and advice. She also reassured me of her visit in only 14.5 short weeks! She knows I am counting down!!
The vanline called and they will be delivering all of our things tomorrow...earlier than expected!! Awesome!!!!
My husband, kids and I will have approximately 150 boxes to unpack. It overwhelms me just thinking about it!!
I am looking forward to sleeping in my own bed.
I am really looking forward to finding a good church. That is not an easy task, and we loved our church back home. I can't wait to find a cd player in the boxes so that I can play my christiam music. It encourages me so much and really lifts my spirits.
My son hasn't exactly been acting like himself. He is not listening and is acting out. It is almost like he is having a hard time resting...it is heartbreaking because I know this is his way of "grieving" the way things were.
Everything he has been used to for six years, with the exception of his parents and sister, has completely changed. How can a kid his age possibly understand what is going on? I don't think he does, and that is why he is acting out. My mom thinks he will probably get better each day and I really pray she is right. I love him so much and to see him struggling just physically hurts me.
Well, tomorrow is delivery day...I can't wait to sit in my favorite chair again.
A friend on facebook told me today to "rise to the challenge."
That was excellent advice. Every time I feel like just crying and going back to Illinois, I have to rise to this challenge. My dad recently told me that I was a soldier and that I was strong. He was right; hevalways is.
So, I will continue to "soldier" through each day. Fear and tears are perfectly ok, but I won't allow them to take over.
Jesus loves us so much, and I know He has a plan. We are praying that he leads and guides every step we take and that He fills us with His wisdom and discernment. With that, there is no way we can fail.
No matter what...
Sunday, June 5, 2011
End of Day 3--Oh my!
I said i was going to create a very honest blog. So..here goes honesty:
I am overwhelmed right now. The kids loved the house and all is well with that, but then we started driving around our new city. It is difficult to never recognize a face, or run into a friend...
I know I am just exhausted. We are just pulling into the parking lot of the Marriott. It is our third hotel in three days. It is 10:15 here and I know I will feel better after a good night's sleep.
My sister wrote in my facebook wall, "just breathe."
That is excellent advice...
Sleep tight, everyone....
I am overwhelmed right now. The kids loved the house and all is well with that, but then we started driving around our new city. It is difficult to never recognize a face, or run into a friend...
I know I am just exhausted. We are just pulling into the parking lot of the Marriott. It is our third hotel in three days. It is 10:15 here and I know I will feel better after a good night's sleep.
My sister wrote in my facebook wall, "just breathe."
That is excellent advice...
Sleep tight, everyone....
Day 3--the waterworks
Not every moment of our journey has been "pretty."
We stopped at Dennys and ordered a few Grand Slam breakfasts. We were watching Fox News on the big TV and talking to a nice family sitting near us. All of the sudden, I felt an incredible sense of sadness come over me. Then...the tears. I don't mean a few small tears that can be hidden...I'm talking major waterworks here! Nothing I could do would make them stop. They kept coming. The waitress brought more napkins to our table.
At this point, I didn't try to stop them. It's not like I know anyone in the mountains, at Denny's, in Pennsylvania. If everyone in the whole place thought I was nuts, that was perfectly fine with me.
Honestly, I already miss my family. Yes, I sound like a big baby. I am ok with that...for now. Before the "waterworks" episode, I looked down at my watch, which is still set to Decatur time, and it was 11pm. I began to picture all of my family at church, then going to lunch, then later heading over to mom and dad's to just chill and watch the kids play. The boys would be running around like two caged animals, and dad would be feeding the babies popsicles.
My family is such a part of me...almost like my limbs, my arms and legs, certainly my heart. I won't be there today...none of the fab4 will be there. This is the "new normal" that we will adjust to.
It will get easier; time has a way of making everything easier. Time doesn't take anything away, it just makes issues more tolerable.
So, on this blog, I am sending my family huds and kisses. I can feel my nephews and niece against me hugging me and I am kissing their sweet, soft baby cheeks...it makes me smile just thinking about it.
I am better now. No more tears...for now. The weather is 75 here in PA and it is sunny, breezy and beautiful. We are jamming out to Switchfoot. When we arrive to our new location, we are going straight to our new home and we will probably jump in the pool...I may even jump in the pond, who knows.
Only three hours left on the road!
Until later...
XOXOXO
We stopped at Dennys and ordered a few Grand Slam breakfasts. We were watching Fox News on the big TV and talking to a nice family sitting near us. All of the sudden, I felt an incredible sense of sadness come over me. Then...the tears. I don't mean a few small tears that can be hidden...I'm talking major waterworks here! Nothing I could do would make them stop. They kept coming. The waitress brought more napkins to our table.
At this point, I didn't try to stop them. It's not like I know anyone in the mountains, at Denny's, in Pennsylvania. If everyone in the whole place thought I was nuts, that was perfectly fine with me.
Honestly, I already miss my family. Yes, I sound like a big baby. I am ok with that...for now. Before the "waterworks" episode, I looked down at my watch, which is still set to Decatur time, and it was 11pm. I began to picture all of my family at church, then going to lunch, then later heading over to mom and dad's to just chill and watch the kids play. The boys would be running around like two caged animals, and dad would be feeding the babies popsicles.
My family is such a part of me...almost like my limbs, my arms and legs, certainly my heart. I won't be there today...none of the fab4 will be there. This is the "new normal" that we will adjust to.
It will get easier; time has a way of making everything easier. Time doesn't take anything away, it just makes issues more tolerable.
So, on this blog, I am sending my family huds and kisses. I can feel my nephews and niece against me hugging me and I am kissing their sweet, soft baby cheeks...it makes me smile just thinking about it.
I am better now. No more tears...for now. The weather is 75 here in PA and it is sunny, breezy and beautiful. We are jamming out to Switchfoot. When we arrive to our new location, we are going straight to our new home and we will probably jump in the pool...I may even jump in the pond, who knows.
Only three hours left on the road!
Until later...
XOXOXO
Day 3
Obviously, we are all mentally and physically drained. All 4 of us slept for a solid eleven hours last night! I guess we needed it.
Last night, right before bed, my son began to feel sick, and a few minutes later he ran to the bathroom and threw up...like crazy! I was thinking, "We have a four hour drive tomorrow...pls tell me he does not have the stomach flu!!"
He has been perfectly fine ever since. Maybe it was something he ate...
We will be leaving the hotel soon and hitting the road.
I'm excited, but also pretty nervous (I'm not exactly sure why).
Maybe I just need coffee...
Happy trails...
Last night, right before bed, my son began to feel sick, and a few minutes later he ran to the bathroom and threw up...like crazy! I was thinking, "We have a four hour drive tomorrow...pls tell me he does not have the stomach flu!!"
He has been perfectly fine ever since. Maybe it was something he ate...
We will be leaving the hotel soon and hitting the road.
I'm excited, but also pretty nervous (I'm not exactly sure why).
Maybe I just need coffee...
Happy trails...
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