Day 51

There is a song I used to sing as a child, and it goes like this:

"Devil, get outta my way
for I'm'a comin through.
You can't stop these feet of mine
from walking over you.
I'm gonna leave you lying there
in your misery.
For I know my Jesus,
has come to set me free."

This little song has been popping into my head lately, and it's due to my headaches. 
The headaches I am referring to have been diagnosed as cluster headaches, and I have had them every single day for about five months.  Some days I may have one, some days three, and other days it seems that I have one almost the entire day.
What am I to do with this??

My neurologist conducted many tests, all of which came back perfectly fine.  My doctor has taken lots of blood and tested for many things.  Each time, I got the phone call telling me that it was all normal.

Today the headaches were especially bad.  It seemed to last the entire day.  I have had very little relief. 

My neurologist seems to think that my headaches will disappear within six months of our move.  I am not ok with that.  I am ready NOW!

I am definitely learning patience with this whole "headache" process.  As I stated, I am ready for my headaches to be gone and never to return.  I absolutely dread them.  When I don't have one, I worry when the next one will begin. 
Then, I begin to stress that there is an underlying problem that the doctors haven't been able to discover.  I stress over it, which causes the headaches to occur and worsen.  It's a downward spiral from there. 
It has to end.

I have complete trust in the Lord that He is going to heal me; He will take thse headaches away. 
I know it is not His will for me to stress and worry and create even more anxiety for myself over these headaches. 
I receive my healing, and know that it can, and will, be done!  I only speak life to my body.  I am healed in Jesus' name.

Tonight I just broke down.  I was tired of the headache.  I was sick of the anxiety that accompanies the headache. 

Finally, the song that I learned as a little girl made it's way through the stress mess that was ravaging my mind, and took over. 

"Devil get outta my way for I'm a comin through!
You can't stop these feet of mine from walkin over you!
I'm gonna leave you lying there
in your misery!
For I know my Jesus
has come to set me free!"

Amen!